i have sufferd from deppression for long time evan more when i have had babys but it gets worse each time i dont trust anyone outside my house AND I NEVER WILL due to everything that has happend in my life, trust is a big issue for me but i see that as my choice, i just had my son in december the pregencey was horrible i got quite nasty to my partner i like being at home with my familie alot i have become very distant from the people i used to chat to alot down the school now i just feel like people are harrassing me , thats since i gave birth also all normal deppression symtoms could not stop crying it was going on all day i have never done that i woudent let the health visitor in for couple of weeks i just felt so bombarded,i started taking my citlapram again i still have an on going precription i just only take them when i feel the need, i was round my friends house the other day i felt like she was trying to keep there for as long as posible by getting the kids to trash the place i was getting very upset when i did manage to leave it ocured to me that she had spiked me, i came back to my partner very angry and distant i evan sent the women a message saying basicaly i would of needed more than that, i have kids i realy want to get to the bottom of this and get the help for there sake ive already lost one son because i was in a violent relationship, ive been through so much in my life and have been very strong i still am strong but why now my life is good do i feel like im crumbling.i have now uped my dose to 60 mg i did do 40mg first but its starting to feel like their not working now and im breastfeeding and i dont to stop till my son is at least 1????
i have thought i have recieved messages in my head but that has only ever happend when i have been out of order and thay make me feel very guilty, i dont trust the world i live in but i feel that that is justified, please how can you trust the goverment with our interests, i have also felt like im being stalked abit by this women we have only ever had little chats down at the school but ever since i give her my number and my addresse she wont leave me alone and i know she know ive been blanking her and she still hasent stoped
also ive done much reseach into my symptoms i am biopola. BUT I HAVE SYMPTOMS FOR MULTI PERSONALITY DIORDER TONES OF OTHERS my paranoir is really bad really bad as far as thoughts go anyway, i evan have some symptoms for dementer