I'm not working myself up. I'm worried if I don't know what I have now I won't be able to treat it before it screws up my life. My mom is currently thought to be bipolar, but she only sees her general doc. She's had high anxiety, can't sleep without tranqualizers, has had many addictions, unstable relationships, is going bankrupt, has had a heart attack and at age 47 she's now getting a difibulator. So...and unfortunately my mother and I have very similar personalities, etc.
I have no problem with my boyfriend. We never fight. We've been together a year and a half and have only ARGUED maybe 3 or 4 times. We're both usually pretty level-headed and laid back people. My moods just explode sometimes uncontrollably. And we usually only argue or fight when I'm in one of my moods.
I stopped taking my meds because : I felt better(bad reason I know but I just had no motivation to keep taking them, don't ask), busy and forget, can't afford them. Esp. the Lamictal. I have no clue how much that is going to cost but I was just down 500 in my b an k. So it's either get meds or pay the rent.