For many years I have seemed to be a diagnosis collector. I have been going to therapy since the 9th grade. There have been some bad things in my past including sexual abuse, self harm and anorexia. I am only concerned with what is truly going on, and finding something that works for me. I have been on Lexapro, Citalopram, and Lamictal in the last 2 years, in various doses just trying to figure out what works. I am not taking traZODONE and Pristiq. I'm a little worried about Serotonin Syndrome. What is the incidence of Serotonin Syndrome with these two drugs in combination? I woke up in the middle of the night last week, and I felt really strange. I was dizzy and I felt like the floor was moving. My heart was beating really fast...is the beginning of Serotonin Syndrome? I just want to know what all this is: the depression interferes with my life, I can't eat, can't sleep, when I do sleep, I can't wake up, I'm fatigued, and just apathetic. I hurt myself when I am upset. I cry a lot. I'm weak. I just feel like all of my life I have been falling apart, and I don't want to wake up one day 80 years old and look back and find that I have nothing happy to look back on. That I wasted my life in a pit of despair that I couldn't (and the doctor's couldn't help me) get out of.