About 4 years ago, a doctor whom had never meet me after a one hour session tells me that I am bipolar, I start taking several different types of medication and I am hospitlized (during this time). My husband came to visit one afternoon and he told me later that I was like a zombie, he requested a meeting with the doctor, and he was told that some people know they are bipolar but do not like what the medications do to them so they will not take there medication (like those movie stars) anyway we finally got someof the medication taken away I we thoought I was fine, I came home and things got bad again. I did not want to go anywhere or see people, I stayed locked up in the house until he came home. After a year of this, and going back to work, January of 07 I stopped taking any medication at all. I have not had any episodes, not depression, and I have lost a child since then. I tried to get someone to see me and possibly reevaluate me but no one will. Can you tell me what you think. It has been 2 years and no med's. i recently stopped smoking and still no can't sleep going manic, or anything. I am even in college and I am a 4.0 student, majoring in Health Science and if that isn't enought pressure for someone whomis biploar then i don't know what is. I have a special needs child, a fulltime job, and go to college fulltime. So, i am trying to figure out how I can maitain a healthy life without any of these medications.