Hi. I am 5'3ish and 102 pounds. According to the BMI calculator, I am in the 15% percentile so I'm healthy technically. I don't know if this categorizes me as anorexic or not (which is what I am trying to figure out because I can't find it anywhere else) but I have a really poor image of myself. The person I see in the mirror is not someone who is pretty or popular. Yes i know that I am skinnier than a lot of people, but when i look in the mirror at my stomach, all i see is fat. I have considered throwing up meals, but i never actually have. Sometimes i will skip a meal here and there but that's about twice a month. So i haven't really become anorexic or bulimic, simply because I know the side effects of becoming one of them. But at the same time I consider it every day. It got bad for a while where I started writing down the calories I would take in and compare it to those that I burn off everyday (and i did this religiously). I would do ab work every night and after that I would do a bunch of dancing just to burn more calories. For a couple weeks I got out of that habit, but now, even though i am not doing it anymore, I am constantly thinking about what I am putting in my mouth or how fat I look.
I just need to know if I am anorexic or not because i want to get help because i hate living like this, but i don't want to make a big deal out of it if it isn't a big deal. Please just help me.