Microtia surgery ?

I really don’t know what to do about making my ear as normal as everyone that I see because I don’t know any microtia doctors in Connecticut. I grew up with microtia and when I was 5 years old I had a surgery done on my ear. They say that they cant do anything more with my ear and felt that as big lie and I have to deal with people that made fun of me, or even looking at me in a strange way where I felt like a monster in school, public places and so on. I’m now 19 years old (turning 20 this october) and I never gotten used to this look of my ears. When I was little I'm always told that I will have an ear like everyone else around me and I kept that faith ever since just waiting for my dream ear to come to me. Now I am hurt by these lies and have to live with a horrible life because of my deformed ear.

The only information that I know is my left ear that can not be opened and I always wonder if my left ear still be done while having the hole-shut, because they told me that if they were to open that one ear I can get paralyzed on that left face but they say that they can still do the right ear (I also wonder if my ear been changed since my last X-ray). Right now I’m thinking of calling Yale Hospital and see if they have anything for me. There is not much to find in Connecticut so I am asking where I can find a doctor that can help me because I cant live like this with my ear looking different from everyone else. Please help me.