here are my symptoms....

1. intense feelings of lonliness

2. not trustworthy of people

3. low self esteem and self concious.....well, i'm self concious because a guy that i liked actually told me that i seem self concious, and that led to more low self esteem. (he doesn't talk to me anymore)

4. i love life, and try to have fun, but no matter what it seems people dont think i am

5. i get intense feelings of anxiety when i go to CERTAIN public places, mainly social places like clubs or bars or restuarants, but not school. recently i drove right past a bar and resisted going for about 20 minutes even though i was meeting some friends there.

6. i have an extreme motivation problem. i procrastinate everything.

7. i feel like people are against me, or talking behind my back, or they just don't like me.

8. i've become very moody and don't enjoy going out as much.

9. sometimes when i'm alone i talk to myself, and make scenarios inside my head like, i'm rich or i'm happily not single and surround myself with friends even though i'm alone. this is very weird and no one knows about this. but for some reason it makes me feel better.

if you could give me an opinion i'd be happy to hear it. i'm a very petite 5'1'' 21 year old, 105 pounds and i get told that i'm pretty all of the time at bars, "whats a pretty girl like you doing all alone in a bar?" i hear that a lot, and then quickly leave, if the guy looks freaky to me, i know all of this doesn't matter about how i feel, i just thought it would give you more perspective about me. i've been single for the past 4 months for the first time in 3 years. so that may have something to do with my problems. i did the breaking up in the relationship, and i don't want him back.