Hey guys im Tyler and im 16 years old, gonna be 17 in 3 months..
ok so ive been doing ecstasy since around late summer of 2008..
So it's been about a year..
So the last 5 times (maybe) ive done ecstasy i got real sick and felt like i was gonna throw up and i would shake and stuff..The only reason i kept taking it after i got sick from taking em was becasue i wanted to feel the E and i thot "oh well maybe this time I wont get sick"..No..So I decided enough is enough i need to quit this thing its harming my body..And i was nvr addicted to it, i nvr even wanted to do E the last 2 times but my friends kinda forced/uncouraged me into it..so i quit..And one week after quitting, of course i start having withdrawals..

Heres how it happend.
I was at school and all of a sudden i was feeling real sick and felt funny.
So i went to the bathroom and was diareha (or however you spell, sorry for my poor spelling)..and i had um like a shrinked penis (lol yeah not funny, it happens when you do E, only while your on it tho)..So i was like this only happens when i do E and caca so yeah i get up and i start walking back to my class and im straight up Thizzin.. (Thizzin is like slang for Ecstasy in my town soo yeah)
So i was freaking out..i went to the nurses and i almost threw up alot but i could kinda hold it..I was also shaking a sweating and caca and my pupils were all dialated, so i knew it had to do sumthin with ecstasy...

So um i go home and go to sleep and i wake up perfectly fine..but i was really warm..
next day i got a panic attack after skating ..it felt like my brain was burning and i was thinking really fast uncontrollably..(not good, i know right)..Anyways i also had hot sweats ..

So here i am now, a little over 4 weeks later, and most of the physical withdrawals are gone..um im still pretty warm but besides that my body feels great!..
the thing thats worrying me is that my brain still feels a little messed up..
like um i get deppressed every now and then but thats not what worrys me..
like my brain still kinda goes a little whack every now and then and its alittle hard to control..but like i think that its gonna last forever and thats when i get real scared..becasue i feel real wierd now and its getting really hard to enjoy myself when i do things...it feels like a very very very annoying burden..I just want it to go away but im reading alot on the internet and i guess thats kinda normal, and im also reading like itl last forever or sum caca..

Please can anyone help me with this or give me some advice..it would be very helpfull..
I want to feel normal again and if i cant im probly gonna shoot myself..
So please if you have any info on maybe how long it last or if it will ever go away.. or if i can do anything to fel better..

alright thanks guys and Cheers!