Hi,

I am still wondering what is wrong with my boyfriend. All of these things must add up to something. I just don't think it's bipolar disorder. When he was young, he was told he had ADHD. He took the meds and it almost made him concentrate too much, and it worried his mother. He has always had OCD, and anger issues. He is very immature at 28, settling for a job as a valet. I am a musician. He is pretty selfish, and would rather be at the gym than anywhere else. Sometimes a bit possessive. A great person, just not sure what the problem is. He gets very upset when things don't go his way. He was prior military and got out of the service over a year ago. He has grown up quite a bit in the last year. I really love him, and see so much potential in him. We just can't figure out what's wrong inside. His father was an alcoholic, and now almost passed because of it. My boyfriend doesn't let out his emotion and keeps it bottled inside unless it's something very small. He let's the bigger things just steep deep down inside. He only can handle small issues. He can be very jealous, and has a short fuse. He has always been head over heals for me, until his doctor gave him meds.

He admitted to having mood swings and went to his Veterans Hospital. The doctor put him on an anti depressant, and it made him totally numb. Zombie like, but still had anger. We broke up, and he could have cared less. 3 days later I went to him and demanded him to stop taking the meds. He did, it was a roller coaster of emotions coming off of them for 6 weeks, but he was ok eventually. That was 6 months ago. Now he recently went back to his doctor, with the same problems of anger. We were back together and I stuck by his side no matter what. Now, 6 months later he still was having mood issues and huge self-esteem problems (which isn't good, because he is very good looking). She put him on Abilify. I noticed him being very delusional and making things up in his mind that weren't there. Such as, telling me I said things I would never say. Accusing me and his own family of odd things. Feeling very down and unsupported. It was very weird. He would lie about things and any good in his personality was gone. I noticed him sleep walking and doing odd things in his sleep. He was worse with his moods and cared less about my feelings.... and it wasn't 3 weeks into taking the meds, he called me and broke our relationship again, because he said he was numb. 3 days after I found out some very personal devastating news, that he was clearly aware of. I was a mess and needed him the most at this time, and he didn't care. (Very out of color) I spoke to the doctor before, and she was very pleased that I called. That was 6 months ago, now I can't get the VA to connect me, because I am not my boyfriend. His family doesn't get it, and I am scared pills are running his brain. I don't think he is bipolar and it's dangerous for him to be on meds that aren't right for him. He is extremely sensitive to things he puts in his body. They haven't tested him for being bipolar either. They just gave him pills and said, be on your way.

He told me he feels better being on Abilify. He is a person who doesn't like dealing with their emotions at all, on any level. So of course he likes being on the meds. It numbs him. With all that said, I feel I am going through a re-run of "I lost my boyfriend to brain meds" when all I think he needs is some good counseling.

Any help or suggestions would be great. I am quite a sad mess.