The fact is you wont be stable unless you stop the experimental illegal drugs and stabilize your drinking habits to a maximum of one drink/hour. You also have to eat food with your drinks.
It's going to be extremely hard for your brain to have the proper chemistry without the help of prescription drugs. This is because of the drug abuse.
1) Breath in and out
2) Read about Dialectic Behavioral Therapy and treat yourself for eight weeks
3) Read about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and treat yourself for eight weeks
4) Read 'positive affirmations' from the internet
5) CHANGE YOUR THOUGHT PATTERNS to more light comforting thoughts
6) Cozy up with a blanket and have a lot of nap times even if you just lay down in a calm meditative state
7) Make crafts with your boy
a: draw on leaves and glue them on paper
b: color and paint
c: cut up egg cartons and decorate them
d: glue pasta onto glass jars and use the jars for storing things
e: make home made play dough and make animals and bake them in the oven. Then color them.

NURTURE YOUR INNER CHILD
9) LOVE YOURSELF, get bath salts and soak your feet in a bowl
10) eat applesauce
11) eat oatmeal with sugar and cinnamon and frozen blueberries for breakfast
12) get a box of Vanilla Rooiboos (Madagascar) Tea and try drinking teas instead of alcohal
13) Remember you are recovering
14) Withdraw from every part of your life that is a bad influence, you are rehabilitating yourself and you are doing it on your own.
15) Feel free to contact me any time
16) Do not feel guilty if you have a relapse just make it as short as possible and keep moving forward. You are training your mind and are extremely strong. YOU CAN DO IT! There are other ways to live life. You are not trapped anymore because you have taken the first step to RECEIVE HELP!