I was thinking about this when I was thinking about what might be going on in my head. Could it be medicine I am on? Here is why I think this:
I got ADD when I was in like 5th grade so they put me on this pill called Concerta. It calms me down and doesn't get me hyper. Then when I was in 7th grade I started to get mad really easily so they put me on Abilify. The Abilify made me gain weight really fast so they took me off of that. But to take me off of it so no problems would happen, the doctor lowered the dosage of the pill for example from 30MG to 15MG. The dosage of the pill went down slowly every month or so. Eventually I stopped taking the pill completely (as planned). Well it ended up messing me up and it messed up my brain so now I would get super-emotional and feel like crying even if I was having a normal conversation with one of my friends. Since THAT happened they put me on a pill to control feeling sad it is called Geodone. It barely worked so the doctor prescribed me to take 20MG to 40MG. NOW, I laugh for practically no reason at all when I am having dinner or watching TV with my mom. It is actually embarrassing when it happens at dinner because I feel like I'm getting everyone mad. So next time I go to the doctor he will probably lower the dosage of it from 40G to 30MG so I don't laugh as much. Could this be affecting my brain's thoughts on sexuality? Because now that I think of it I kind of remember not even having these thoughts about me questioning myself...