Hi.Sorry this post is so long, but I've been dealing with medical abortion complications and all the inadequacies of a high-volume clinic for two months now.

I feel very angry at the staff of the clinic I used for many reasons. First of all, they told me that 1 out of every 100 medical abortions fails. Looking online, the statistic is actually closer to 8 out of every 100. That is a HUGE difference. Had I known that there was about a 1 in 10 chance that the medication would not work, I would have opted for the in-clinic procedure.

I turned out to be one of the women who still had part of the pregnancy in my uterus (although they diagnosed it as a clot at first).

The effects of the medication are extremely frightening, or at least they were for me. I had instant diarrhea (sorry, I know that's gross to talk about), and I did not stop vomiting for hours. It's hard to keep yourself hydrated and keep down pain medications and anti-nausea meds when you can't even take a sip of water without puking. The cramps were so painful, and I was afraid to even stand up because every time I did I could feel the huge blood clots fall out.

I was terrified when, after that entire ordeal, the ultrasound showed a spot in my uterus. The doctor didn't even give me the option of a surgical procedure at that point. She just sent me home with more meds, which scared the heck out of me. That procedure is something you don't want to go through twice.

I went back. This time they only had a nurse's assistant give me the ultrasound. She sent me home with what she thought was a clot, telling me it would probably come out with my next period.

Over the next four weeks I endured more bad cramps and some spotting. I called the clinic, and they told me it was normal--my uterus was just contracting and trying to get back to its normal size.

My period came and went, but the cramps and spotting remained.

I finally decided that I had to go back, so I made an appointment. For whatever stupid reason, they scheduled me for a pap smear. The nurse asked me if I was there for birth control. I'm convinced that the people at this clinic do not listen to the patients, or they just don't communicate with each other.

The nurse performed the most painful pap I've ever had in my life. I then told her about my issues, and she said that I probably had a bladder infection. For some ridiculous reason she wasn't "supposed" to do an ultrasound. I started crying, and she finally said "OK, but I'm only doing an ultrasound because the doctor is here today." Sure enough, part of the pregnancy was still in my uterus. Of course, she didn't believe it was from the same pregnancy (they had lost my chart). She accused me of getting pregnant again, even though I told her it was impossible as I hadn't missed any of my pills and had only had sex (WITH CONDOMS) three times since the procedure. When they found my chart, she finally believed me and scheduled me for an in-clinic procedure later that day.

Because I had come alone, I was only allowed one vicodin for the procedure. They made me take it, and it wasn't until THREE HOURS LATER, after the vicodin had worn off, that the doctor performed the procedure. It hurt so horribly, and afterward I was shaking from head to toe. That whole day I never had a chance to eat anything. They loaded me up with pills, and a few minutes after I left I started throwing up.

The worst part of all of this is that at no time did a single person at the clinic apologize for any of this. I should not have gone six extra weeks with that in my uterus. They should not have let me go and given me such bad advice. They should not let nurse's assistants perform and analyze ultrasounds. And they should never leave ANYTHING behind in a girl's uterus after an abortion.

I'm still having really bad, sharp pains in my pelvic area. It's also been really tender around my navel. I even ran a slight fever on monday (the procedure was last Friday the 9th), , but when I call they just tell me to take advil. If I've already taken advil, they tell me to take tylenol.

Right now my temperature is elevated (99.8 F), and I'm really scared that this pain means I have an infection. My next appointment is next friday, but I'm thinking maybe I should go back sooner? I'm just worried they're going to overlook all these issues like they did before. I don't have insurance, so I can't go to an emergency room or a doctor's office.