ok, im going to post all my problems, mental or not, im sure they relate.
Im 19, i first tried Marijuana at 12, and became a 5 times a week weed smoker by 14, and a daily smoker from 17 until now.
Ever since grade 11, (16 years old) i stopped caring about school, i still took part in sports teams and what not, but i just didnt care about my marks. By the end of grade 12 i would skip class nearly every day and smoke weed, and my marks suffered. I graduated on time, but didnt really take initiative to send myself to university so i took a 5th year, after a few months i dropped out, changed schools, dropped out again, and applied to university.
Since coming to university, i have spent all my money, failed half of my courses, i have not paid my student fees, i have rent to pay, need to buy food, with no money. and i dont have any plans to take care of myself, i dont ever take the initiative, i even think about the changes i need to make, but i never make them.
so now here i am. University student, in a program i am uninspired by, i skip class every single day, i stay up late playing video games, sleep in until the afternoon, eat very little since i have little money, and honestly none right now.
i have attempted to quit smoking weed,hoping this would help my motivation to change, but every time its around me i accept it, and smoke it, and i find myself in the same slump and im lost. I just keep ignoring my problems, i dont know how to tackle them, i dont know how to motivate myself to fix my problems.
saying good bye to my dad on reading week broke my heart, i dont want to be a disappointment, and thats all ive been. but maybe its thoughts like those that keep me feeling like this. I dont know where to go from here.. help!?
Well, at least you have recognized that you have a problem.
But, what are YOU going to do about it now?
Obviously, you are not going to be able to do this on your own. You have tried.
You need first to distance yourself from the things and people who make it easy for you to smoke MJ. You probably need to get out of the university setting for now, get a job, something which requires you to be at it every day.
If you can't stop smoking on your own, get professional help.
While using something once in a while for relaxation is fine, it is again a matter of moderation, in whatever it is (MJ, alcohol, chocolate, hot tubs, music, whatever). One big problem with MJ is that it takes away any motivation you might have to do anything. That is a known effect of long term use.
Good luck. You are going to need it. And, you are eventually going to have to tell your dad, especially if it was his money you just burned up smoking (univeristy tution, fees, etc).
Get some professional help before you waste anymore brain cells. Again, good luck.
Get up! Marijuana is not what's keeping you down. It's you, yourself. The lack of motivation you have is what your problem is. I know very succesful people that smoke and maintain their lives everyday. Get a job and put away the toys. Come on!