Are you bipolar? Do you get your meds? Can you reach your doctor? If you feel that you cannot control your state its a good idea to control your doctor.

I also have a question for the manic state. I had till now 2 major manic episodes, the last one was before one year and the other one was before ten years. Im on meds now. I didnt payed too much attention in my first manic episode, actually i didnt thought that is a bipolar state, i didnt accepted it. After my last episode i have accepted my problem and i know now this "side" of me. Is it possible now to control by myself these manic states? I feel that i can do it, using my previous experiences. I know that is dangerous to stop meds and seeing my doctor but this thought is in my mind these last days. I got back to my work and im doing almost with no problem, like before ten years that i wasnt on meds.