I can definately relate to this, you are not alone. And I feel so foolish when I consider that it might have just been an intense case of mania. It feels so real, no? Take bipolar symptoms into consideration, stay grounded and down to earth, but also respect your spirituality and the way you feel as well. Perhaps God made bipolar individuals the way they are for a reason. What were your past experiences and the physical proof?

very confusing experiences. you could say the mind caused some of them, like when a spirit compelled me to gnash my teeth, or make me smile in a demonic way (a kind of forced demon-like smile that almost hurt your mouth). I just figured where there is Heaven, there is also Hell.

anyway, the experience involved footsteps. i rem hearing something coming towards me at night and the following day seeing darkened imprints leading up to where i was, stopping as soon as i went inside. very strange. i think about this, and God alot. especially God since when i felt his presense, other people did as well. (doesn't this prove mania wrong).

my mom saw them and so did my step brother. i still feel troubled over this, but it helps my faith in a weird way.

i'm real confused about this and it makes me question whether i should take medicine.

I think it would be wise to discuss your experiences and visions with a therapist and psychiatrist, they are trained professionals and will work with you to help you figure out if and what medication will help you best. It is good that your faith has been strengthened by those experiences. Do you pray? In times of difficulty, it is very comforting and grounding to pray to God. Like when you explained the painful demonic smile you had. That sounds very frightening and confusing, and it is helpful to always trust in God in times like that.

Yes I pray. I cherish those times still. In God there is happiness. Now that I'm on medication, I am lethargic and unhappy. Shame my mom drugged me when I was high, bc if she didn't, that feeling I had might of lasted. If it was mania, it would of supposedly became delerious, but it didn't feel feel like mania, it felt like I was in God, close to God.

I believe that you have a special connection with God. Stay on your medication though, it will help keep you from crashing and burning. By working with a therapist, you can perhaps learn to harness your otherwise explosive or creative or mania (or whatever you want to call it) and find an appropriate outlet for it (such as running, kickboxing, painting, acting, art, poetry, writing, volunteer work ect.) If you are depressed, just keep working with your psychiatrist, family, friends, your relationship with yourself and just trust in God and what is happening to you in this period of your life. Things will get better. Professional help and time are the best healers. I hope you feel better and get your moodes more regulated and stable soon!

The one time I had mania, I felt like I was having a spiritual rebirth, an authentic spritual experience. I felt like everything was connected, and i felt like I had some sudden deeper connection to God or Jesus Christ.

Now, years later, I'm not sure what to make of it. I think I've returned to the same way I was before the experience, kind of an agnostic, but there's no denying that at the time, what I was feeling felt very, very, real.

I know that some of the things I was thinking during the mania really were delusions, but I really do wish I could feel whatever it was I felt again, that made me feel closer to God. I don't care if it was a delusion or not, it felt holy, in all seriousness, and I'll never deny that.

That is good! At least that is my opinion. Do you go to church? Have you been seeking the anointing of Christ? Have you asked for the Spirit of Chist? Do you have gifts of the Spirit? If So, why do you ask such of a question

I experienced the same. I am not religious but God touched me then and still does today but just with a lot less intensity. Many of the others you speak of who felt closer to God while you were in mania, probably did. They are completely aware of it, with much greater knowlege than us (bipolar). They will not share the extent of their knowlege to the open (I still haven't figured out why not). They may only make you feel more crazy if you dwell into it with them. Even with over 7 years of effective therapy, God makes his presence felt daily just much more subtle than full blown mania. Reading this, many of you will argue the therapies' effectiveness but I assure you professionals feel I'm doing just fine. I feel it is spiritual and has nothing to do with what religion you are. Doesn't matter you are christian, muslim, jewish, hindu etc. My experiences were with people of all religions and with those who had none. My advice is to keep your experiences to yourself. Sharing it openly may only cast judgement onto you. This is the first time I'm openly writing about this and it's with anonymity. As bad as the disease can be, consider it as a blessing and that God provided you a little peak into divinity. Till we learn more all I can suggest is to do the following. Do the right thing. Treat others well. And do the best you can. I figure that is all what can be expected from us. Finally, be sure to continue with your medication and therapy. Everything you've experienced will mean nothing if you don't have a straight head that you can reflect upon with.

wow this is really comforting. I have a husband who I am beginning to think has bipolar or manic something. Just because of his behaviors and voices and God.

He went on a 3 day journey walking with no shoes because God told him to have faith. I beleive in the power of the Lord and all his teachings but some part of me also thinks Daniel may be delusional. Its so hard to tell.

Daniel carries on a conversation with God all the time, its always him and God never just Daniel. What do you suggest?

I always knew it was God from the moment I started to say God was contacting me but as they saying goes "you contact God and they call you religious, God contacts you and they call you psychotic"

I have had miraculous experiences since then, out of body, involving other people. 100% Conviction. One time I went into a Hare Krishna book store and opened a book randomly just after I saw feeling very down because everyone was saying I am delusional. This is the quote from page it opened at when I looked down...

CC Adi 7.88: "'When one actually develops love of Godhead, he naturally sometimes cries, sometimes laughs, sometimes chants and sometimes runs here and there just like a madman.

I looked some more and saw this...

�A person engaged in the devotional service of the Lord in full K�ṣ�a consciousness automatically becomes carried away by ecstasy when he chants and hears the holy name of K�ṣ�a. His heart becomes slackened while chanting the holy name, he becomes almost like a madman, and he does not care for any outward social conventions. Thus sometimes he laughs, sometimes he weeps, sometimes he cries out very loudly, sometimes he sings, and sometimes he dances and forgets himself.�


CC Madhya 2.49: "Unalloyed love of K�ṣ�a is like an ocean of happiness. If someone gets one drop of it, the whole world can drown in that drop. It is not befitting to express such love of Godhead, yet a madman must speak. But even though he speaks, no one believes him."


1. No care for outward social conventions
2. Runs here and there like a madman lol
3. Sings, Dances
4. A madman must speak, but even though he speaks no one believes him

The soul experiences a rush of God and when it does the mind and body are affected, obvious. Sometimes you lose your mind when you find your soul, people can't see the soul, they can only judge from the mind and body. Ignore them. I know that the label of MANIC is just put on those people that have the destiny (karma) for contact with God and our bodies are predisposed to these experiences.

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what is it with the three day thing? My son said god told him to go on a three day walk in the mountains.

my husband is bipolar 1 and he has the same thing happen he talked to Jesus and was told by jesus to go in our garden naked and run water over his feet

Hey Irishone
This is a tough one to answer. The workings of the mind are very much like faith. The Mechanics can be somewhat vague and not everything allways adds up like you'd think.
For what it's worth nobody feels like they have mania. People with mania believe just as you did that they have forged a spiritual or supernatural connection that is uniquely thiers'. The feeling you are describing could only be diagnosed by a psychologis as Mania. Mania also tends to strongly influence people around you. It is not abnormal that friends or family members could believe they saw a greater spiritual presence in you during a manic episode.

There are many examples in the Bible and the accounts of Saints of people who the church believes God talked to. All of them accomplished great things for their faith. Most people with Mania are more inwardly focused. Did god give you any instructions to aid others did you have any great success in this end?

Most accounts of people who are talked to by god are predictive. God tells them of things that will happen. Most people who have Mania are interpretive. God tells them that things that have allready happened are his work. Do you recall a time when you were contacted by God where he revealed to you things that had not happened yet? Are they things that are not vague or subject to interpretation? Were dates or specific names given?

Most importantly continue to take your medication. God isn't a mental disorder. If you were genuinely infused with his presence no medication could change that. He would continue to communicate to you as often as he needed to if he had work for you to accomplish regardless of what neuromeds you were on. Mania untreated can be very dangerous to you, your loved ones and especially to your faith. Many heritics and appostates were believed to be people sufferring from Mania. The false belief that God was instructing them caused them to violate tennants of their faith and preach falsehoods.

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Ok, wolf, I would just like to ask, have you ever had manic episodes? Have you ever been bi-polar? Have you ever had any kind of mental disability? You are correct in the fact that God isn't a mental disorder. But who are you to say that God doesnt speak to these people with the disorders? I am not saying that everything they do is because of God, because they are also afflicted with a disease from the ultimate deciever. The Lord never said that ALL Christians would live a life of bliss. Bipolar and manic are terms created by the rest of the world. Not to say that there definitions are not correct. But these scientific explanations/definitions do not tell the whole story. I believe that many people with illnesses have a divine purpose that is Given to them by God. I'm not saying that God is the one who gives them the illness, because he would never do that. But he may allow it to happen so that they can realize there annointing. Yes, some things that people with illnesses believe are interpretive, but not all. Just because you are annointed doesnt mean that God literally speaks out of the silence and says 'Jane, I have work for you to do today'. The Lord speaks in many different ways. And as far as talking with God, there are so many Christians that do it every day. God is not always going to have a check list of things that he is telling you to do for the good of mankind. He wants personal time with you as much as possible. Just because you are annointed, doesnt mean that you will be known by the millions on earth. It could be God's will for someone to live on the streets and lead a humble life. If they are not harming people or telling lies or doing things that object to the bible, you CANNOT say that they are dangerous OR that they are liars. I believe that there are ALSO many cases where these illnesses can be very harmful to the victims and the people around them.

Nope, I'm in perfect mental health, but I've worked with a lot of folks who would be classified as clinically delusional and dated a girl who experienced halucinations for a few years. I understand the perspective of people who are confronted with a reality that others don't share.

I don't mean to imply that people sufferring from mental disability and people that God talks to are mutually exclusive, just that people who experience reality differently must be cautious in what they accept. I do agree that God could certainly tell you do do things that aren't a benifit to others or provide you with information that is cryptic about events forthcoming. However Mania does not typically motivate people to interact with others or work to their benifit as God has done to so many biblical figures and saints. Mania cannot provide you with detailed information about future events. Only a devine entity is capably of knowing the future. I felt these would be useful benchmarks to help Irishone 21 determine if his experiences were undisputably divine. Unless his symptoms are clearly more than Mania he should certainly be cautious about preaching what he is told to others lest he commit apostasy or even heresey. And if he is told to do something that is a danger to himself, others or his faith he should absolutely be dubious of the message.

Well definately I agree with you.

I agree with ALL of the messages on this post Mania or God. This is the first time I've heard of some one else having similar experiences like with my ex-girlfriend. I'm really a religeous individual so at first I thought I was crazy and non of my friends would believe me. I have had feelings of a spirit that woke me up in the middle of the night at her house. She tells me that it's her deceased brother that comes around from time to time. I have experienced mind reading literally verbatim. And have had an instance where my ex girlfriend later repeated elements of a conversation between my mother and I, where my ex-girlfriend wasn't even around. Too, shas symptoms of varying degrees of emotions, racing thoughts, mood swings, she has trouble managing her diet and what she eats. She is vindictive, tells lies left and right, and when I told her once that her emotions were ALL over the place she got upset and yelled, "What do you think I need to be on Lithium!" so that was a clear indicator that she's bipolar. This has been the scariest event of my life. Personally I feel there's an evil spirit or demon about her.

Its possible that there is Jet fire. Are you a Christian? Is she? I'm not saying thats what it is, but its definately a possibility.