I m sorry you feel that way. my problems are far worse than yours. it all depends on how one handles the cards they're dealt.
i've been battling depression for 18 years, and i feel very uncomfortable in front of crowds.
are you able to see a therapist? they probably can help you through your problems. if not i would...i demand that you research social anxiety disorder and how to handle it. try to find books on that issue.
"7 years a waste" i totally disagree with you honey. if you fall, pick yourself up! your still young and anything you didnt do, you still have a change to do.
i screwed up my student loans of 27k i can't go to school b/c i m in default. i have so many issues, some i'm taking to my grave.
ps if your not married your suppose to be a virgin.