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Q: LOVE LIFE VS HIV
asked by: gugu on March 20th, 2008
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Hi guys I've just found this forum today I am a 30 yrs old female (South African) I have been pos for 5 yrs now...I had a boy friend for the past 4 yrs who is negetive I disclosed my status to him 3 yrs ago and we never had sex in this 4 yrs yesterday he asked me if I was serious about being pos I said yes it's true and I wanted to know what was gonna happen he asked me what would I have done if I were in his shoes that kind of annoyed me as I expected him to be honest about what he feels and I expected to treat this seriuosly as he is a medical doctor I answered that I would run for my life and he never answered me after all this years why would he back of now after leading me on I would understand if I hide my status from him I m so hurt by this I wished he was more sensitive than this ...I tried to educate him since I realised he was a clueless doctor guys am I wrong by being angry at him...pls share your views thanks
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homerx
replied on March 20th, 2008
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gugu, no you are not wrong to be angry. I understand where you are coming from... but if he cant except you as you are then you need to let him go. It hurts but you cant change his feelings. If he cant deal with it then you must move on and find someone who will love you without limits and will love you no matter if you are HIV or not. It might be easier to find a partner that is HIV also...Dont let this get you down as you need to have a good attitude and you need to be happy for your health...I am also HIV and I have to admit that if some one I liked couldn't deal with that then I would want them to move on..I am going to have Mson write you also, she is from Kenya and may be able to give you some good advise..Much love and peace,homerx
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Muthoni
replied on March 20th, 2008
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Just like Homer said.
homerx wrote:
gugu, no you are not wrong to be angry. I understand where you are coming from... but if he cant except you as you are then you need to let him go. It hurts but you cant change his feelings. If he cant deal with it then you must move on and find someone who will love you without limits and will love you no matter if you are HIV or not. It might be easier to find a partner that is HIV also...Dont let this get you down as you need to have a good attitude and you need to be happy for your health...I am also HIV and I have to admit that if some one I liked couldn't deal with that then I would want them to move on..I am going to have Mson write you also, she is from Kenya and may be able to give you some good advise..Much love and peace,homerx


Hi Gugu. I am sorry to hear about what you are going through. Doc seems to be in denial or something. He does have a good career but that is not all you want in a man. You have to arm yourself with courage and be ready to stand on your own because the love should be unconditional. My husband proposed to me knowing full well that I used to be a prostitute. He knew I am Bi polar and had AIDS. He loved me anyhow and still loves me. So if he wants to walk, let him. He lost the game, not you. If he will not accept you as you are, then surely he is not worth having. Girlfriend, you deserve better.

He is not the first doctor I have had being soo ignorant. Shocked

Put your best foot forward and do what is right for you as a person. You don't need stress.

I had a daughter who passed on in 1997 and I mourned her for 10 years. And then I have immigration issues. It is stress that I don't need. If I had no stress in my AIDS and Bi polar life, I would be healthier. Beyond a shadow of a doubt. But I do have a chance to regain my health. I try to avoid stressful situations. You can do it...

And you are not wrong to being angry at him. Take the upper hand. Do what you want to do. You had a life before this man. If he's being that way he is not a good candidate.

4 years without sex? Wow is all I can say. I think you deserve a sex life. It is good for the body. Hehe Laughing It is not like we don't have protection! Condoms are readily available and they work when used properly. Surely...

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Muthoni (Mson)
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gugu
replied on March 25th, 2008
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Thank you
Guys thank you for your warm replies they really helper I feel much better now and I know I deserve better than him he proved what a coward he was and I realised I dont need a man like that in my life

Thank you guys

Mson I read some of your posts and I am inspired by you, you are the strongest woman I have ever come across ...how on earth did you pull trhough all that my God this comes to show that nothing is above God ....God really loves you woman ...I thought I have been trough a lot but reading your story got me thinking.. yes yes yes
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gugu
replied on March 25th, 2008
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homerx
replied on March 25th, 2008
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Yea...Mson is a wonderful and inspirational woman...I am so happy to have her to talk to and to be my friend and hero...Smile
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Muthoni
replied on March 25th, 2008
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Re: Thank you
gugu wrote:
Mson I read some of your posts and I am inspired by you, you are the strongest woman I have ever come across ...how on earth did you pull trhough all that my God this comes to show that nothing is above God ....God really loves you woman ...I thought I have been trough a lot but reading your story got me thinking.. yes yes yes


Gugu, thanks very much. I believe what you tell me that God loves me very much. I know it because I would be six feet under the ground if it was not for God. He saw my suffering in Africa and He brought me here. That is why I do His work. Everything I do, Id it for Him.

He took my daughter home so that I may not have to worry about her. She was in Kenya and I was here and I really worried about her. Now she is in a better place.

I was brought up church going Christian. I ended up being a non church goer but I committed my life to God. It was mainly in 2006 that I started to sort after this God that loves me so. Mbae 2007 I was praying everyday but Sunday. At this time I am used to praying. Prayer drove away worry from my life. I am the type if given a chance I will worry about everything. I avoid that and switch worry into prayer.

Even me I cannot express how I went through all that I went through. I think because there were other people suffering with me, I thought this was normal. The rapes I kept to myself but I am sure this was going on for other people. How did I survive, it must have been angles. And you know, more people suffered than me. Families perish you know. Car accidents, fire. Lots of s**t.

Be strong and always keep God close to you. He will work wonders for you. He will bring you love and a rose in the winter time.

He did for me, He can do for you.

Love
Muthoni (Mson)
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Muthoni
replied on March 25th, 2008
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Thank you
homerx wrote:
Yea...Mson is a wonderful and inspirational woman...I am so happy to have her to talk to and to be my friend and hero...Smile
Homerx, I am very happy that you are my friend. You are my hero as well. I have never heard of such a relationship where both people are heros of each other. I love it. I always pray for you.

I work for the Almighty and He makes sure our rent is paid, bills paid, debts brought down, medication (expensive) food and clothes. Everything. Mr. Green Freely I have received, freely I give. I thank God and the tax payers.

My mind goes back to 1998 when I was being deported. After they released me from detention, I knew I had to do what I had to do. I had to tell my story in schools as I waited for my decision. It is now 2008 and I am still waiting and still working.

I am committed. You are too and it shows.

Love
Mson.
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homerx
replied on March 25th, 2008
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Muthoni wrote:
homerx wrote:
Yea...Mson is a wonderful and inspirational woman...I am so happy to have her to talk to and to be my friend and hero...Smile
Homerx, I am very happy that you are my friend. You are my hero as well. I have never heard of such a relationship where both people are heros of each other. I love it. I always pray for you.

I work for the Almighty and He makes sure our rent is paid, bills paid, debts brought down, medication (expensive) food and clothes. Everything. Mr. Green Freely I have received, freely I give. I thank God and the tax payers.

My mind goes back to 1998 when I was being deported. After they released me from detention, I knew I had to do what I had to do. I had to tell my story in schools as I waited for my decision. It is now 2008 and I am still waiting and still working.

I am committed. You are too and it shows.

Love
Mson.

respect 4you luvcomp voices you are my Queen queen queen queen and not one day goes by that I don't say a prayer for you, my brave wonderful inspiration... pray queen pray queen Evil or Very Mad
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Muthoni
replied on March 27th, 2008
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Thanks my dear. You are too kind.

Love
Mson.
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