I feel lonely even when surrounded by people. Same feeling for years. I have good friends and great family, they care about me. I think like my job but I feel that I am not successful at all. I really want to change it but I feel like stuck here where I am losing my confident everyday . I have tried to motive myself but I act like lost case and afraid by failure at work and private life as well therefore I got it. I am sure, my colleges and manager treat my work not well. They don’t give any urgent or high priority task . All this has been express unmotivated on me. I do gym, hang out with friends. I study my master without big success so far. I am single for 5 years, any serious relationship these years... I am interested in photography and attend course. All these years I hope the better is comming … but it's just getting worst. I think I will die by sadness and loneliness. Is this poseble? I am unhappy all time, my face looks sad. I want to run away somewhere far from here but I know I will be same me. I am 30 years old and I don’t know still what I want in this life and why I feel unhappy, lonely and empty. I just want to find out what I miss and what I really want and need in this life. Or all these feelings should be normal life stage? I’m lost in life. How can I find my talent and find right job. I can not leave this one without find others. I really want to find my soulmate. And why I don't enjoy during I am searching for new job or my soulmate. Why do I think that this will change my life to better one. I really can not control my dark thought which make me unhappy and lonely? I don't want to give p but I feel so tired. I seem to have lost touch to my true self? Am I crazy?