In June my father committed suicide. He was the most important relationship in my life. He kept me on track, goal oriented, and was always there to reassure me that no problem was too great to handle. Initially I was sad, but not as much as I thought I would be. Maybe one or two episodes of crying over a 3 month period. I spent a large portion of my time (before and after the suicide) with my girlfriend (spent 5 nights away from each other in a 5 month period) and I felt I was losing interest in her. We broke up and I knew that I'd made a mistake an hour later and begged her to come back. Now even though she is back I feel horrible. I feel disinterested in every aspect of life, my education, my friends, my hobbies, video games..etc. I am in a horrible depression, unlike anything I have ever experienced and I have spent the last week on a break from my girlfriend to try and determine if I am just now grieving my fathers death or if my relationship is the problem. Every time anyone asks me about my girlfriend I have nothing but good things to say. She is gorgeous, sexy, smart, funny, and caring, but I don't feel the same when I see her. Is it just a depression from the loss of my father showing up late, or am I losing interest in my girlfriend? Any advice?