First i should start to the beging me and the baby's father(always been just friends) was good at first. I got pregnant with my first child and soon afterwards lost the baby. I smoked a lot of weed back then maybe my bad but i knew God his plan and i wasnt ready for a baby. I asked for him to take my baby. Anyways things started to get iffy with the father and me we started messing with other people and still with each other. I've never really trusted him, but i havent been able to trust any men after so many have treated me like poo. I stopped though this spring break and i was only with him and i knew i could have a baby with him after that. We were stupid and stopped using comdoms and he cummed in me every time. We had woo hooed every day. I feel so stupid typing that now. Does that me your trying for a baby LOL! wow... Anyways he would always sleep with me every night in my dorm. Till he stopped coming for two days. Every man has cheated on me or had a girlfriend when they have tried to get with me. DRAMA. I was freaked out i called and called his phone so worried he didnt answer. I was pissed and slept with teammate. He always keep me as a friend and had girls calling him at 12 at night and locked his phone All the signs of a cheat. I had to earn his trust. Before i knew it he was with another girl and holding her hand and calling her his girlfriend. I wasnt with anyone. I found out i was pregnant and this whole time he was with her he was hurting me i wanted a father i wanted a man to take care of his child and support me when i had no one else to look for. So i let him use me as a F buddy. I would cut him off finally and he would get me to let him back in. The pain left me crying every night and looking for comfort in all the wrong places. She broke up with him and he came back to me... I felt sick but happy. Then he told me he still likes her and she told me she still likes him and she wanted to share and good luck on being pregnant. What a disrespectful person she is i guess it makes her feel good. He telling me and keeps telling me hes being faithful but hes such a Casanova. He told me he even wants to have another kid. That we are starting fresh and going to make it right and that he loves me. I'm sick of his mind games. Hes 12hrs away right now and isnt comming back till the 20th of this month from summer break. I'm always the one calling him and texting him. If i didnt call he wouldnt even make a effort. I showed him the 12 weeks baby through a text. He didnt even reply... then i called him and he said i'll call back in 5 mins he didnt. i went to the store and tried on some outfits to take my minds off of things then called again and he made some story up about his kids or something just like the time he left his phone in a freaking mail box so it wouldnt get broke. I do get mad at him alot like about all these girls on facebook and he can even say hes dating me he leaves that he still single on everything even though he says hes with me. I guess i'm just want support. I still havent told my family yet and its hard for me to deal with this all on my own. I dont know if i shold keep on trying or not I love him and it hurts so bad. I wish i could tell if he cared. He always tells me no one would treat me better then him and that i'm tripping if i say stuff about that girl he was with or anything else i'm just Lost it helps writing this. LOL i'm a mess. I just dont know if i should say to the left or should i go to his right???