Hi everyone.
We have been married for 14 years, i married at 18 him at 19. Hes always been a grumpy bear.
We have 4 children which i homeschool with no support except phone text from far away friends.

I was raised in a dysfunctional home, so feel ive got off quite lightly, but i am struggling. He yells at the children, our 6 year old little guy has such a sensitive spirit and he is scared of his dad. I recently asked him to help with reading (firsddt time ive asked)and our little guy was jittering, hoping not to stuff it up.

My hubby is now a cop and well suited to the job, he has recently changed roles in there which is a lot less stressful on the work front. but as always he comunicates by yelling. hes done it from the start.only been a cop 3 years.

my confidence is so low,and although he supports the decision to homeschool there is no interaction with the children. Im getting anxious when i expect him home and im starting to look for oportunites to go out when he is here.i love him but i hate his behaviour.

i am a very patient person, but im really running out of steam. The children are starting to retaliate now they are getting older, yet generally when he isnt here it is peaceful. I do have a strong belief in marriage, but i also know that he has got away with too much and it is only because of my past that i am still with him, he knows this.

yesterday mothers day i asked him, please can we have a day with no yelling. a nice day. i had to ask him several times. we had a lovely day. we were watching videos and he had plans, they yelling erupted again and instead of a lovly evening i went to bed sad again and children in tears.

my times on the couch seem to be getting more regular as i find im needing space.
Any advice please