Both of my parents have died of alcoholism; dad on Thanksgiving Day 2003 and mom on Jan. 16, 2009. Since mom died, I have been incredibly depressed and irritable beyond belief. I get so mad sometimes because I feel like I have been cheated out of any kind of a normal family. I cry on a daily basis and it is making me crazy. I am constantly catching myself grabbing for the phone to call my mom and tell her about the things happening in my life but... she is not there. I miss her so much.

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't here anymore.