2 years ago i was 130 pounds...i was happy...i wasnt toned or anything, just a healthy happy weight.
i liked the way i looked. i moved to North carolina with my fiance, i love him very much...but we had a lot of stress with money and we eat very well or been active for two years.
our money situation is improved and we''re comfortable...but in those 2 years i gained 50 POUNDS!!!!!! i hate myself...i make my fiance and my friends mad because i wont go places because i hate the way i look and feel.
I know i should work out and eat better and i try, but i have no energy and i depressed to point where on my days off i literly lay in bed until my fiance gets off work. my wedding is in july and i havent even tried on a dress because the only ones that will fit me are huge and ugly...i hate hate hate myself....i need help im so tired of being sad....
another reason its so hard is my fiance is naturally fit and thin, he eats whatever and however much he wants and is always full of energy and in shape...its hard to buy seperate food and cook seperate meals, i dont want him to eat too little food and get sick, but i cant eat as much as he does...i dont have the time to keep up with it....
please help...i want to lose 30 pounds before my wedding in july...