I'm starting to be really isolated and I'd like to talk about it. I'll try to make this short but this story started since a year.

I have problems with girls.

I have no problem about having a casual or normal conversation, but I just can't stand getting involved with girls, its way to difficult. Sometimes I just start a casual conversation and then run away because its getting me involved. I can't see my friends (guys) because of theirs other friends (girls), I am being isolated because I can't stand bonding with girls.

The problem is, when I stay at the same place, its becoming more and more easier to get involved, so I move to another town, but now I just can't move, I'm stuck. And I'm really frightened having a huge breakdown in front of everybody, being forced, after that, to explain myself and thus becoming involved with people.

The thing is, I really like girls, and worst, they really like me (thats the most painful part). I want to be with them but I'm not allowing myself to do that (I donno why yet), thus this leads to a nervous breakdown. And after, you have to tell them, and obviously this will get you involved.

My first breakdown was caused by a girl I loved, I couldn't live with it, so I had a breakdown, but then realised that when you love someone: "you have to try". So its basically the same thing here except there is no love here, I just like girls.

I mean, I don't want to burden others with my problems, its way to huge, they don't want that. Do you imagin yourself at school or at your job having such a breakdown? That will make everybody having nightmares and not eat for a week. (Presuming they don't see you, if they do, this will scare the sh*t out of them). These people don't know anything about you and may not even care and just see you as a wacko which has the be placed in an psychiatric hospital.