Hi,
I'm 14 and I have been dealing with anorexia since I was 12. Last year I was doing really well and was able to eat to meals a day almost everyday. But since I started school after summer, I have returned to my old habits. I lie all the time about what I eat and when I worked out etc. But now I can't even be around food because it makes me feel really ill. I really want to lose some weight because I look huge compared to all of my friends. I'm size 6/8 but I only want to be size 6.
I'm losing control of this though because I am completely obssessed with not eating and if I ever do I have to work it off immediately. i've also started self harming to help deal with stress and anxiety.
I really want to feel confident in myself but I really don't know how. I don't want to end up in hospital and I don't want to lie but I don't know what else to say.
Is anorexia something I will ever be able to cope with, and if it is, where do I start. I can't carry on like this and I can feel myself getting tired more easily. I'm always cold and I lose my temper more often and I know that I need to deal with this but I really don't know how.
I've also had to lie to my long term boyfriend(over a year now) about what is going on.

Should I tell him, and how can I deal with all of this.

thank you,
take care

Natalie .x.