I am a single 38 year old woman that has never had a boyfriend, never had a date for even one birthday, valentine's day, new year's eve. Even single female friends have bailed on me for a guy that treated them badly on these days if it meant they didn't have to be alone. My sexual, intimate, relationship needs have never been met, adn i'm beyond my witt's end. I should not have had to miss my sexual prime and youth, alone. I should not have had to watch life go by and not be a part of it. I forced myself to spend thousands on coed sports teams, years in community service, educated, yet no one has anyone to introduce me to, and i'm tired of forcing myself through the humiliation of dance clubs or sports bars by myself. I'm tired of camping coffee shops and grocery stores. Why am i not wanted? Why do i have to miss out on what makes life worth being born for? WHEN WILL THIS END? why isnt there one healthy, educated, employed man that wants an actual relationship. I DO NOT WANT TO BE A FREE HOOKER SERVICE IN THIS NSA WORLD.