I live in the south of France ,and for the first time in my life I'm living alone in an appartement. First, everything was doing pretty good, getting used of being independant from my parents and enjoying it. But recently it's been harder...
I had a history of mental depression in my teens, I was having the worst terrible anxiety attacks : I couldn't go to school anymore, eat like nothing, had very few friends...basically I stop living for a while. It was hell. I finally saw a shrink who gave me antipressants and within a year I became myself again, graduated and went to college.
5 years later I'm a adult who goes to work and live by herself.. and the fact is I have the feeling that I'm coming back to my old bad habits : anxiety attacks at work, at the appartement. I have the terrible feeling that slowly but surely I'm falling back into depression. I though having my own place would be good for me, but I feel so ALONE!!it's scares me so bad. Recently most of my friends move out of town, I miss my ex boyfriend so badly .I try to stay positive but It feels like nothing goes wright .At the same time I feel that I can't go through another depression like I did before it's so -hard-
I don't really know what to do, I'm seeing another shrink but I don't feel any better.
Thank you a lot for reading this.
Do you believe that the antidepressants are the reason you came out of your previous depression? Could anything else have contributed to your recovery?
Are you taking the antidepressants now? If not, do you think you need to go back on them? Is there anything you did before that helped?
How long have you been apart from your ex-boyfriend? I know how lost love can contribute to feelings of loneliness. That is very normal, so don't be scared. There are a lot of us out there going through what you are going through.
Hey Patrik, thanks for answering me.
I don't know what exactly got me out of my depression, I believe the medication helped me a lot at this point but also meeting my ex boyfriend saved me. I totally put myself in this relationship and it also got me out of depression I think.
I stoped taking meds about 4 years now and even if I'm feeling low I don't want to get back on them coz it really scares me a lot... it was hard to take them in the first place but I was even harder to stop them. Me my ex boyfriend have been seperated for almost 3 years! quite a long time now, I had other boyfriends since but I never moved on from him, I do miss him a lot.
Thanks again for answering it means a lot to me.
And I know someone else answer my post too but I don't know why it was deleted? I can't remember your name but if you read this please write me back bec I really wanted to answer to you too.