I've got a problem. I'm 36 and I'm having career problems. I'm currently in massage school, just started, and I'm thinking of already quitting. Problem is I just can't do it. I think about studying fashion design, it's always been a dream of mine. But, I fear that there will not be any work out there for me, that I won't like the industry people and so that is why I choose to study massage therapy.
I also have personal issues; anxiety.
A part of me thinks that I should stay in school, 1 1/2 yrs., and do fashion on the side. But, a part of me longs for some schooling in business and fashion courses. I am just a mess with the constant back and forth of my mind. I had seen a psychotherapist for a few years and have now decided to see a psychiatrist to speak to. I feel like this indecisiveness has affected my whole life, it has been ongoing for years, and it has affected my relationships...etc.
I don't know what to do. I obviously need clarity and am constantly trying. I feel like I have tried everything. I don't like who I am right now.