Why do want those feelings in your life? Have you considered that you did not do anything wrong at all?
I want to tell you some things. I am a womans health nurse, I work in abortion, and I have had 3 abortions. I am happily married to a wonderful man, and I feel GOOD about myself.

I do not regret my abortions, I do not feel shame.. I do not feel as though I have done anything wrong...

I do not feel that you SHOULD feel shame at all. AT 17 most women do not have high school diplomas, college education, or enough money to even take care of a baby. I would never choose adoption, because I am going to have my body all out of whack just to hand a baby over to someone else. IF I am having a baby, I am keeping it, no if's and's or but's.

I do not personally feel that you made a bad choice at all, you made a tough choice, but not a bad choice.

Some people in society will tell you that you are horrible, but since when are they YOU? Since when do they deal with your life, and your issues?

You had an abortion, but it does NOT DEFINE YOU. YOU define you!

I have also had an abortion, and have never felt guilt or sadness over my decision. I know some woman do have feelings of guilt, though. I'm just wondering why you haven't told your therapist. Telling her may help you quite a bit. Together, the two of you need to get to the "root" of your depression. I also see a therapist (not because of my abortion) and have told him everything about my life. Including my choice to abort. They are not there to judge you, but to help you get better. I know it will be difficult for you to open up about the abortion, but in the end, I'm sure it will help. I hope everything works out for you.

yeah i dont know why i cant open up about it... i know a lot of girls make this decision i just feel horrible...like if i was to have a kid later in life i wouldnt be able to not think like,"i could of had another child...how could i of done this." i guess im viewing the whole issue as killing my child thats almost like a part of me... i dont know why... maybe im just being over dramatic..the decision i guess was the best at the time i was still a senior in high school and what not...yeah im seeing my therapist this week ill definately try and tell her. Thanks tho to everyone i really appreciate it.