I don't know what to do. I feel very alienated from everybody in the world, although there are people all around me, wherever I go. I feel lost. I feel completely alone and scared. In the nighttime is when I especially feel the most frightened. I live by myself. I feel left and abandoned. I usually get drunk every night to stave off the extreme discomfort of going through the night alone. I'd love to be in a relationship with a girl, but I get too attached and they leave me quickly. I'm on disability for extreme depression, extreme social anxiety, and obsessive compulsive disorder. What girl is going to want a man that's on disability for these kinds of things? So that's an unfortunate situation too. I don't know what book to read or what kind of help to seek. I've been in and out of counselors offices and have been on this medication and that medication since I was in middle school, so I don't know what the answer is. Can you help?