hello and welcome. i am more concerned that you are maybe depressed and this is a sign you need to talk to someone.
I had a friend who played sombre music and he was depressed and it helped him get into his frame of mood when he felt everything was closing in on him. This was a sign that we knew that he needed his friends close to him.
If you are worried about anything you can talk to us
here. No one likes to feel down as we usually call a friend who can make us laugh as its a horrible feeling.

Well, I'm not sure about that. I myself have many friends and quite a few close ones. There is also nothing really that would cause me to be depressed. Also, for some reason, around the same time that I've been wanting to get depressed, I felt like happiness was a bad feeling, that I shouldn't feel it.

The same thing happens to me! I just googled it and found this. So, I guess we're not alone in the world.
I don't know the explanation, but sometimes I like to feel depressed. The only thing I'm worried about is that I have a family history of depression. But normally you're supposed to not like feeling depressed.. so I don't know what's wrong with me either