I am so sorry you are in this position. I can feel your pain.
Most of all my heart goes out to you for the betrayal of your family. How cruel of them to turn their backs on you!! I CANNOT fathom why a family would act that way.... have you had a good sit down, heart to heart with them individually? Maybe they don't understand that this is a very dangerous and unhappy situation for you.
On top of that I think you should seek out a potential roommate. If you can find another (preferably woman) to share the rent, you can get out and start your life over and have the opportunity to do what makes you truly happy and open the door for the man you really want to come in.
I want to tell you that the longer you put it off, the harder it will become. You have ONE life to live. Just ONE... and it could all be over any minute. Live it.. don't lay around and live according to what everyone else thinks you should.
It is NOT THEIR LIFE.
LOVE