First off, my psychiatrist says I'm a latent homosexual -- predominantly a heterosexual male, but a latent homosexual. I've never had a homosexual experience in my life and am not interested in one. The realistic possibility of sexual contact with a man really grosses me out. My sexual experiences are limited to women and they are very enjoyable for me.

My homosexual thoughts began at puberty. When I was a boy I had no sexual interest in other boys. I experience my homosexual thoughts as instrusive, alien and painful. I do not fantasize about performing homosexual acts with other men. I am aroused by the sight of attractive men. I masturbate to thoughts of or pictures of physically attractive men. When I fantasize about women I think about performing sex acts with women. The instrusive and alien nature of my homosexual thoughts leads me to wonder whether they may be an expression of OCD -- obsessive compulsive disorder.

I'm aroused only by anonymous, good-looking men. I will see a good-looking guy on the street, for example, and fantasize about him during a private moment. I masturbate to gay porn.

I'm not at all attracted to guys I know. When I'm in a locker room, I'm not at all aroused by guys I know -- only the anonymous, good looking ones.

I had a good-looking roommate in college. I used to see him naked all the time and was never aroused by him. I never had any sexual thoughts or feelings about him. I masturbated very little when we were roommates and never to him.

When I tell straight guys about this, they say I'm homosexual. But it's more complex than that. I don't consider myself bisexual because I'm not equally attracted to men and women. Again, only anonymous, attractive men are a turn on for me. It's really weird, I admit it.

Is there anybody else like me out there?