So growing up to 14 years of age, I had obsessive compulsive disorder. It took a lot of concentration and focus to do certain "rituals" in order to feel good. Sometimes these rituals were helpful for school as I had to memorize atleast 15 different things and recall them in sequence and randomly. This helped me a lot in school. However, I became very stressed out once my mom tried to force me to get circumcized. Those were very stressful moments in which I believe to be the turning point of my life. Ever since I lacked motivation, drive, concentration and interest in school. Self-esteem suddenly became a huge issue. I felt like the old me was unstoppable and more responsible than I am now.
In my case, the mental symptoms are slowing me down. Prior to my stressful situation, I was very much involved in individual sports. Today, I still follow my routine of exercising 3 times a week. Physically I am very healthy, but strongly believe I am mentally not up to par.
What I would like to know is whether all this could be depression. Does anyone feel the same way? Do I need to be suffering in grief and sadness in order to be considered depressed? Could I seemingly be living a normal life while I am depressed?
This is a really hard post to be able to say either way. It sounds to me, before you mom revealed what she wanted to have done, you lead a pretty normal life. Depression affect us all in different ways. But, normally it is not short term and is not just one thing. A truly depressed person can be in that state over just about anything that hits them. Suffering from depression is far from leading a normal lifestyle.
I personally think that this is one instance where you really not have this done and it is depressing you. Have you told your mom you would rather not have it done. Yes, this very well may be an isolated depression.
Have you had the procedure? Why is your mom wanting this done? Have you told her of problems you are having? My son was circumcized at birth, but my husband was not and is now suffering at age 45 because he was not. His parents did not have the procedure done due to financial reasons. If there is a problem, do it now and do not put it off. It will be much easier now, than when you become older.
I live in Canada so health care is very accessible. No I have not done the procedure. I held it off because of fear. Everything happened when Mom took me in for a body check up. That was when the family physician discovered that I had phimosis. A condition when one cannot roll the foreskin back. I was told by both Mom and the family physician that I probably won't have to get circumcized but it is best that I see a urologist. According to the urologist, it turns out that I had to get circumcized. I felt the biggest sense of betrayal right there from both my family physician and mom.
When I left the urologist's office, I felt unsatisfied. All he said was that I needed the surgery. Wouldn't you want to know WHY you would need it? Of course! So I pleaded to mom to find another urologist for a second opinion but she wouldn't even listen to me. I was ignored and neglected. She would rather pay all her attention to my sister's high school graduation even when it was 10 months away. So by making my unhappiness of the situation crystal clear, I locked myself in my room. Video games and the same video game. I didn't talk to Mom unless it was about the procedure.
I avoided the surgery. Mom finally brought up the topic a year after seeing the urologist. Surprisingly it only took 30 minutes to convince her to forget about it. It was weird because I didn't feel a great deal of satisfaction when I had my way of not doing the procedure. I was relatively flat in emotions.
It was until a year later that I did some research on men's health because my phimosis wasn't getting any better. Apparently I am suffering from the pathological form of it because I forcefully stretched the opening. That's what happens when someone lacks knowledge of their own problems. Only if I was able to get a second opinion on my condition then I would not have made such a careless mistake, you know?
My mood feels relatively the same, in school, at home, and at work. Basically everywhere I go. Nothing excites me....
Ok, now that you have told us why she wants this done and the problem it brings about, you need to have this done! If the forskin does not go back naturally, it can lead to worse things as you get older and also begin to be sexually active. This is something have I would say will be one of the best choices of your life. Granted, it is not a bed of roses and it is going to hurt. But they try to eveleate as much pain for you are possible. Your aftercare will also be as pain free as they can make it. Yes, I would say, stop worrying and think of your future and get this done with an opening is available.
You will know when it is time. The choice is yours. I wish it had happened at birth, but what is done - is done. Again, you will know when you can't put it off any longer. It sounds like you are going to have to have the procedure done. Remember, there are worse things in life than this procedure. I know you are nervous about it, but YOU know if it has to be done or not. Again - the choice is yours.
Its been 4 years since I was 14. I finally found the courage to seek medical help for surgery. Surgery is appointed as I am still confused what is causing me to feel mentally depressed but physically able to do anything. I just realized what might be the cause of my "depression", so here is more of my story...
It was difficult to cope with stress brought by the news of needing to be circumcized. Fearing that my penis would not be the same, I stayed on the internet for most of my teenage years. Knowing without a foreskin could feel extremely different, I often went to masturbate as if it were my last time with it in tact. So, this might not just be depression itself. I could be addicted to porn and the internet, causing a cycle of addictive habits that ultimately lead to depressive feelings and symptoms.
Yes I am going to see a psychiatrist very soon, so don't worry about my mental state of mind. This is my story and a different angle of view on why I feel the way that I do. Hopefully this post will help many in a similar situation to understand more about themselves.
One question for the moderators and readers. If I happen to be addicted, should I continue a weekly routine of exercise and encourage a feed of dopamine in my brain?