lacking motivation and drive Posted: 07-10-08 02:20am
So growing up to 14 years of age, I had
obsessive compulsive disorder. It took a
lot of concentration and focus to do
certain "rituals" in order to feel good.
Sometimes these rituals were helpful for
school as I had to memorize atleast 15
different things and recall them in
sequence and randomly. This helped me a
lot in school. However, I became very
stressed out once my mom tried to force me
to get circumcized. Those were very
stressful moments in which I believe to be
the turning point of my life. Ever since
I lacked motivation, drive, concentration
and interest in school. Self-esteem
suddenly became a huge issue. I felt like
the old me was unstoppable and more
responsible than I am now.
In my case, the mental symptoms are
slowing me down. Prior to my stressful
situation, I was very much involved in
individual sports. Today, I still follow
my routine of exercising 3 times a week.
Physically I am very healthy, but strongly
believe I am mentally not up to par.
What I would like to know is whether all
this could be depression. Does anyone
feel the same way? Do I need to be
suffering in grief and sadness in order to
be considered depressed? Could I
seemingly be living a normal life while I
am depressed?
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CarolDiane
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Hi Posted: 07-10-08 02:58am
This is a really hard post to be able to
say either way. It sounds to me, before
you mom revealed what she wanted to have
done, you lead a pretty normal life.
Depression affect us all in different
ways. But, normally it is not short term
and is not just one thing. A truly
depressed person can be in that state over
just about anything that hits them.
Suffering from depression is far from
leading a normal lifestyle.
I personally think that this is one
instance where you really not have this
done and it is depressing you. Have you
told your mom you would rather not have it
done. Yes, this very well may be an
isolated depression.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 07-10-08 03:20am
Have you had the procedure? Why is your
mom wanting this done? Have you told her
of problems you are having? My son was
circumcized at birth, but my husband was
not and is now suffering at age 45 because
he was not. His parents did not have the
procedure done due to financial reasons.
If there is a problem, do it now and do
not put it off. It will be much easier
now, than when you become older.
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Lightend
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My Current Situation Posted: 07-10-08 12:55pm
I live in Canada so health care is very
accessible. No I have not done the
procedure. I held it off because of fear.
Everything happened when Mom took me in
for a body check up. That was when the
family physician discovered that I had
phimosis. A condition when one cannot
roll the foreskin back. I was told by
both Mom and the family physician that I
probably won't have to get circumcized but
it is best that I see a urologist.
According to the urologist, it turns out
that I had to get circumcized. I felt the
biggest sense of betrayal right there from
both my family physician and mom.
When I left the urologist's office, I felt
unsatisfied. All he said was that I
needed the surgery. Wouldn't you want to
know WHY you would need it? Of course!
So I pleaded to mom to find another
urologist for a second opinion but she
wouldn't even listen to me. I was ignored
and neglected. She would rather pay all
her attention to my sister's high school
graduation even when it was 10 months
away. So by making my unhappiness of the
situation crystal clear, I locked myself
in my room. Video games and the same
video game. I didn't talk to Mom unless
it was about the procedure.
I avoided the surgery. Mom finally
brought up the topic a year after seeing
the urologist. Surprisingly it only took
30 minutes to convince her to forget about
it. It was weird because I didn't feel a
great deal of satisfaction when I had my
way of not doing the procedure. I was
relatively flat in emotions.
It was until a year later that I did some
research on men's health because my
phimosis wasn't getting any better.
Apparently I am suffering from the
pathological form of it because I
forcefully stretched the opening. That's
what happens when someone lacks knowledge
of their own problems. Only if I was able
to get a second opinion on my condition
then I would not have made such a careless
mistake, you know?
My mood feels relatively the same, in
school, at home, and at work. Basically
everywhere I go. Nothing excites me....
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 07-10-08 14:15pm
Ok, now that you have told us why she
wants this done and the problem it brings
about, you need to have this done! If the
forskin does not go back naturally, it can
lead to worse things as you get older and
also begin to be sexually active. This is
something have I would say will be one of
the best choices of your life. Granted, it
is not a bed of roses and it is going to
hurt. But they try to eveleate as much
pain for you are possible. Your aftercare
will also be as pain free as they can make
it. Yes, I would say, stop worrying and
think of your future and get this done
with an opening is available.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 07-11-08 00:55am
You will know when it is time. The choice
is yours. I wish it had happened at
birth, but what is done - is done. Again,
you will know when you can't put it off
any longer. It sounds like you are going
to have to have the procedure done.
Remember, there are worse things in life
than this procedure. I know you are
nervous about it, but YOU know if it has
to be done or not. Again - the choice is
yours.
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Lightend
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Joined: 18 Jun 2008 Posts: 6
Posted: 07-11-08 18:12pm
Its been 4 years since I was 14. I
finally found the courage to seek medical
help for surgery. Surgery is appointed as
I am still confused what is causing me to
feel mentally depressed but physically
able to do anything. I just realized what
might be the cause of my "depression", so
here is more of my story...
It was difficult to cope with stress
brought by the news of needing to be
circumcized. Fearing that my penis would
not be the same, I stayed on the internet
for most of my teenage years. Knowing
without a foreskin could feel extremely
different, I often went to masturbate as
if it were my last time with it in tact.
So, this might not just be depression
itself. I could be addicted to porn and
the internet, causing a cycle of addictive
habits that ultimately lead to depressive
feelings and symptoms.
Yes I am going to see a psychiatrist very
soon, so don't worry about my mental
state of mind. This is my story
and a different angle of view on why I
feel the way that I do. Hopefully this
post will help many in a similar situation
to understand more about themselves.
One question for the moderators and
readers. If I happen to be addicted,
should I continue a weekly routine of
exercise and encourage a feed of dopamine
in my brain?