I don't know if this is the right kind of place for a post like this, but I am looking for a few answers or maybe some direction?

All of my life I have been a very unmotivated girl, looking back on it now - from an early age I was never really made to finish anything, I remember dropping out of ballet at age 5 or 6, dropping out of basketball at age 10, I never had to finish my dinner (I was too fussy) and then I dropped out of high school after tenth grade.

I've had many jobs, all of which I get bored with after about a year. I was frustrated at my unhappiness in these jobs thinking I'd rather work for myself, so I moved on to 'starting' my own web design / freelance business which fazed out after a while, I wasn't bringing in enough money due to my lack of motivation to do the work with no supervision at home.

I don't know if the job part is connected, maybe I just haven't found what I love yet, but it's mostly my home life which bothers me..

I'm just so unmotivated and lazy. Our (husband and i) house is ALWAYS messy with clutter, junk, rubbish etc. I, to put it simply, cannot ever be bothered to put things away, throw things in the bin etc etc.

There are so many things I want to do in my life such as gardening, home renovations, scrapbooking, photography etc etc, I am a very creative person, BUT I usually just lie around and watch TV or lose countless hours surfing the internet.

I have a tendency for depression, I was very depressed for about 6 years of my teenage life which ended when I met my now husband. I don't know if this is related?

Am I just lazy? How do I make myself get up and go?

I am so jealous of people who do things here and now, my parents are SO motivated, if mum tells dad the fence is broken, he'll jump up and fix it right away.

In comparison, my husband and I took two years to flatten a mound of dirt in the back yard so we could pave an outdoor eating area. (and after all the hard work assisted with by my father - we've used it about 5 times and it's completely overgrown with weeds now, after 2 years!)
& his car has been in our shed for about 6 years pending a sanding/painting job we were going to do to it. (this has meant we have only had one usable car for this past 6 yrs too which you think would maybe motivate us to finish it? no, we are now thinking of just selling it).

I could give you so many examples such as these..

Any advice for a complicated girl like me??