just turned 17 and pregnant

that was the first thought i had when i looked at the home pregnancy test which was reading positive. i didnt know how to tell my boy and i knew he would flip it seeing as it was my fault, i was on the pill ran out of pills so stopped taking them. i didnt think it would matter. big mistake. i told the boyfie yesterday and his mate and they want me to get an abortion. but i cant i already feel connection to this little peanut i think i would be around 3-5 weeks but im going to the doctors tomorrow :/ im scared as heck, i have a screwed up life smoking drinking drugs and all sorts of stuff but you know what im going to change for my little one im going to help this baby grow up and see how beautiful the world truely can be. if any one has any advice or can relate please post! cayyytch. xx