Hello all.
So here is my scenario: In my group of friends, I have sometimes been labeled the 'Eeyore' of our group. A combination of a rough, damaging childhood, jaded relationships, and bouts of unemployment have left me having more cycles of depression and being down than most of my friends combined.
Anyway, my best friend and I have been friends and nearly inseparable for over five years. We have been there through some of each other's worst times. We would text or email nearly every day, at the least, saying hello, and nearly every weekend, if not a couple days out of the week, you can find us hanging out. Even at other friends' gatherings, usually we would go together.
Well my best friend has started dating a new woman. Nothing new, since I've been through all the other women he's dated. But for some reason, he's very different about this woman. It's only been two weeks, yet he's already had the long-term commitment/marriage/kids talk with her. When he talks about her, it's almost at if he's already planning out their future. Maybe he is, but I just find it too soon for him basically already be orbiting around her.
The other day, we were hanging out, and I brought it up to him how weird it was to see him so wrapped up around this woman, and that he should pace himself a little. I also brought up that I really hope he doesn't 'replace' me, and start brushing me off and ignoring me, like he sort of has in the past. Another reason why I was bringing this up to him, is because it has already started; him either not responding to my texts, or when he does, its obvious he's just blowing me off. When I asked him when we were going to hang out again, his reply was 'I don't know,' and before I left his place, he asked that I make sure I take everything that was mine (not that it was a lot, just things like my spare toothbrush, random items of clothing, etc).
Well, he accused me of being crazy and overly emotional, and that I was thinking way too far into things. It ended up being kind of an argument where I repeated that I wasn't crazy, I just didn't want him to start ignoring me or his other friends like he has in the past, and that I didn't want to just fade into the background and become a distant memory. And I also told him that I felt this way because he's never been like this about any other girl he's dated.
Tonight, he is out with his new girlfriend. But not only with her, but with our other friends too. I got the phone call earlier from my other best friend, who wanted to make sure that I was okay with it. The only reason why I am not there, is because being unemployed, I don't really have the money for the restaurant they're going to. Anyway, my other best friend went on about how nice and similar-to-me this new girlfriend was, and she can see why he's into her. She did mention though, that he told her that, although I would eventually meet his new love, he was glad I wasn't joining them tonight, because he was afraid I would be crazy emotional and maybe say the wrong things, or look pouty.
Learning all of this, I'm struggling so much with loneliness and jealousy. I feel like the biggest loser, and like I'm being replaced. I don't want to bug him with texts and seem too needy, and I don't want to keep asking about him and her from my other friends and become one of 'THOSE' friends.
I don't know how to cope. My friend's want me to somehow find a way to be happy, because no body wants a 'Debbie Downer' around, but I am struggling so hard under these circumstances.
So please. Anyone. Any advice is greatly appreciated. How do I win my friend/friends back from their negative outlook of me? How do I cope with my best friend not being so accessible?
Thank you.
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