I can't stop. It's this whole cycle. It's too hard to eat. I just don't know what to do. I won't eat for a while, but after a couple days I can't stand the feeling and binge and purge.
It's too hard to eat. And it's too hard to keep any food down. I don't wanna do this anymore. I just want an easier way to stay healthy.
I've already been inpatient twice, where I was forced to gain a lot of weight. (I gained so much soo fast.) And now I'm not severely underweight, but I still struggle with eating normally.
My outpatient doctor told me to follow a meal plan. I can't. It's too difficult. I can't follow it...I can't bring myself to eat all of that. And one time I did try the meal plan out for a day, and I gained 3 pounds in a day. I just don't wanna do this anymore. Is there an easier way to get nutrition? My doctor told me that I'm malnourished. He says even though I'm not that thin (I'm just slightly underweight) , he says all my symptoms such as no energy, being cold, feeling faint, etc, are caused by not eating the right foods and eating enough. And plus throwing up what I eat only makes it worse.
I just want to know what I can do! Is there any easier way to go about not being malnourished and getting all the nutrition and feeling healthy without difficult meal plans? I wish there was like a magic pill that I could take once a day and I wouldn't have to touch food at all, but I'd get everything I'd need lol. But that's not gonna happen...I just can't do this without feeling crazy every time I eat a bite of food. Yeahh, it's either remain in control and don't eat it, or feel driven by some machine to just eat as fast as I can even though I'm not even hungry. I hate the whole food thing. I don't know why me of all people have to have this whole problem with food.
I don't know what to do. Please help me if you can...
i have the same problem i just cant eat! i havnt seen a doctor yet im far to scared. i dont binge thou im to scared that if i did i wouldnt be able to purge it all out again. i starve myself and when i do eventually eat i cant bear 2 go other 300 cals and even that is a struggle i havnt gone over 200 the past few days.i have to excerise if i eat no matter how weak i feel. i know its bad for me to say but i think you need to tell your doctor that the meal plans are to much for you. have you tried making your own meal plan? 'safe' foods i hear really help poeple with ed cos you dont panic im yet to find mine. but make sure you see your doctor and tell them the truth!
hi, it sounds like that you are strugaling with the sicological side of belimia in you conting destructive relationship with food. as another who strugles with binging i sugest you try to eat a little at reguler intervals, full meals can be a long tern project not intant.
try to have food reom all the food groups but a little at one time you may find it easer to have one ot two food groups each time you eat. also start with your safe foods and work towords a varied diet.
it would be a good idea however to ask your docter to refer you for councling to work through your relationship with food and the binge trigers, untill you have identified these and delt with watever the undering course of the problem is it will be very difficult to brake the cycal. it may well help if you can find a friend or relation who is willing to work closly with you and suport you in resiting the erge to binge or beeing there if you slip up.
you realy need some help to adress the underling isues to make a full recovery, otherwise it is papering over the crakes and it will not lead to a full recovery. if you want to talk just message me.