My fiancée (Mandy) and I got engaged two weeks ago and we are considering cutting off sex until we get married so it is 'special' when we do it. We aren't getting married until the end of March next year and we are going to stop at the end of next week. We are currently living together and sleeping in the same bed every night and we have had sex eight times since we got together. Some people might think I am insane for doing this because she is incredibly beautiful but I was the one who put this idea in her head because I originally wanted to wait until marriage before I did it.
Apart from a one night stand I can't even remember because I was drunk and on cocaine Mandy is the first woman I have did it with. My Girlfriend and best friend (of eleven years) passed away when I was sixteen and I went through years of depression and tried killing myself three times. One part of me thought if I got with another girl I would be cheating on her while the other part didn't think another woman could possibly want me because I was broken so I just gave up.
I got together with Mandy this year and I have honestly never loved another woman as much as this since my first girlfriend (Jessica) passed away. She loves me too and I am a lucky guy having her in my life because she is amazing. We've become basically attached to each other, we love all the same things and we have a very similar relationship to the one Jessica and I had. I think she is my second soul mate if that is possible.
I was brought up with a very religious background and Jessica and I were going to wait until we were married before we did it but she passed away so it never happened. Mandy on the other hand wasn't and most of her past relationships had only been about sex and she wanted us to wait because she really liked me and she wanted ours to be different. I was fine with this and didn't want to rush her but she ended up having sex with me one night and said she couldn't wait.
I am not a Christian anymore and I pretty much gave up my belief and faith in God when Jessica passed away in a car accident. Part of me still believes we should have waited until we got married before we did it and while I am not taking away anything from having sex with Mandy because it has been incredible I think we should hold off until we get married before we do it again. Mandy thinks it is a good idea and she thinks it will make our wedding night more special.
Do you think this is a good idea for our relationship? I will still be going down on Mandy but we just won't be having sex again until we are married starting from the end of next week. I love her and I truly believe our relationship runs a lot deeper than just sex. We are together up to sixteen or eighteen hours every day since she moved in and we have grown very close. Jessica and I had a great relationship without even having sex so I think if we are meant to be we will last.
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