I gone thru 2 divorces and at 51 I'm in a relationship to where I still find love and happiness. I just find myself crying and needing someone to talk to and to hear my tears. I feel lost with no one to to hold on to. Yes at 51 we still need someone to hold us when we are down. I love my girlfriend but I feel like I can't even go to her. I don't need someone to stand there and say OK Ok Ok like they are trying to get rid of me when I'm crying my heart out to them. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me I just want someone to UNDERSTAN ME!!! I go thru so many time that when at home I go in the bedroom by myself and turn on the the sound box and listen to the birds singing on it. It makes me forget there is a world out there. I am a true Christian and I believe that the Lord puts us thru times in our lifes for a reason, but I don't know why I have to go thru this , NOT FOR ALMOST HALF MY LIFE!! I can't even find a Christian church here in town that the pastor will talk to me about this. Here is the big question is it wrong to want to be loved by someone just one person in your life, and feel like that person does love you? Dear God why do I feel so alone. Why do I just want to sit in the middle of a field and cry? All I hear from people is that I'm such a great person. That everyone loves me. WELL DO I FEEL THEY DON"T? LIKE I don't want my girlfriend or my 5 year old daughter or my sisters or brother to love me when it's good for them only. I want them to show love when I need it also and not have to feel like I need to give a point of blood to get it from them. PLEASE LORD SEND SOMEONE TO HELP ME PLEASE!!!