I need advice. My husband is constantly being secretive. I just want to hear from anyone with bipolar to know if I am crazy or being too insecure or is it reasonable that I am concerned about this. There is a lot of background to why I have had trouble trusting him. I won't go into that right now, but I will ask what I am worried about.

My husband hides his cell phone and continually deletes messages as soon as he sends or receives them. It's driving me crazy. I can't argue with him about it, or he will lose it. I worry there is something going on with a woman or something. He gets so mad because he says he doesn't want me to see or hold his phone because I should trust him like it is a moral issue. Then, he makes me feel guilty for not trusting him. I have been hurt over and over again when I did trust him.

I have never had evidence that he has cheated one me with another woman, but I have stumbled upon suggestive emails and messages to other women. He always has a reason and goes off on me for being jealous or over-protective or smothering. It is insane how he can take a situation when I catch him doing something and I end up being the one to apologize for it. I really want to believe that he would never have an affair and cheat on me. But, on the other hand, I do not want to be blinded woman sitting at home loving her husband while he is out doing God-knows-what. He is very distant with me at home hasn't touched or kissed me in 2 months. That makes me worry even more.

Has this ever happened to anyone? Please help and offer any advice, any stories similar to mine, etc.! I am the end of my rope.