I have bipolar Disorder 2 rapid cycling. I was recently diagnosed after seeing the doctor for what I thought was depression due to my husband leaving me & my moms death a few years ago...
I would have to say that the most uncomfortable feeling I have is the irritability, anger & impatience. I have 4 daughters & I have been a single mom for about a year, so there is also a lot of stress & work to do.
What have you found to be helpful in managing anger & feelings of agitation?
Right now I am taking Depakote since lithium caused extreme sleepiness to the point where I was having accidents while cooking & doing every day household chores.
I don't want to get angry at the kids & sometimes I have to excuse myself to my room because I am afraid I will get so mad I will get physical with them. MY oldest daughter is a young teen & very disrespectful so I am sure I am not angry at them for doing nothing. Somtimes the little things kids do don't bother me as much, but sometimes I feel so much rage...why? The depakote & lithium did not help at all with these bipolar symptoms, neither do they help with the teariness or sadness.
The anger issue has allready landed me with a fracture in my hand and the loss of a gf (clocked one of her friends), so I know exactly where you are coming from. As for the impatience...just talk to any of my former co-workers and theyle attes to me being a "kind-hearted, short tempered, devil of an angel".
Rage and impatience is almost a stereotypical hallmark of someone with Bipolar. Our emotions range in the extremes and we tend to lose control over them. These acts are often not premeditated because we stop thinking rationally.
Walking away from the situation is a very good start. Lock your self in your room, punch some pillows and scream into them. That usually helps some for me. Too bad there isn't always pillows hanging around in a office .
When I am stuck some-where without a pillow or a lockable room and I feel that bubbling/boiling feeling kreep up from my stomach, I close my eyes, clench my teeth, fists and every other muscle in my body untill I have drained my self to such an extent that I don't have anything to throw things/words around with. It's still a bit of a disconcerting sight, but rather better than full out reaction to it.
I hear you on the Lithium lullaby But I like it too much to quit it
Unfortunately, I can't suggest any medications as most medication have totally different affect from one patient to the next. Your best bet is to see your dr regularly so he can asses your reaction to the medication and swap them out untill you get a good balance.
It's been an ongoing struggle for me to find a good balance between "Acceptable" levels of symptoms/side-effects and as the one medication fades out, the search begins all over.