Hi, please give me any and all advice. I want to hear all sides of this, so please be completely honest. Thank you.

Here's the breakdown. I've had this friend for 10 years now. We've been close, and are best friends. Well call him A. Years ago we realized we had feelings for each other. Over the years those feelings have grown and grown. But we've never done anything! aboslulty nothing physical, we haven't kissed anything!

So years later I was in a relationship with guy B. Guy A wanted me to be with him and I told him that I couldn't, I wanted to be with guy B. I spent almost 2 1/2 years with guy B before realizing what a terrible person he was and how mentally and emotionally abusive he was.

I went to school while I was still with guy B and met guy C. I completely feel in love with guy C and I'm still complelty in love with him. I left guy B to be with guy C. When I told guy A he was hurt that he'd been waiting to be in a relationship with me but I chose to be with someone else.

Now it's again been 2 1/2 years that I've been with guy C. These have been the happiest years of my life. I love him so much I can't do anything to prove it to him enough. But I'm his first serious girlfriend, he's only dated one other girl for about 3 months. So I've been scared he'll eventually leave me to see what else is out there.

Last weekend I went back home to see my family and friends without guy C. Guy A and I hung out and while we were talking we realized we loved each other and could see ourselves together for the rest of our lives. But the thing is. I don't want to be with guy A. I want to be with guy C and I told guy A this and naturally he was hurt by it but supported my decision.

It's been a little over a week since the trip, and even though guy A and I did absolutly NOTHING physical I still felt guilty about the feelings I had. Last night guy A told me I needed to tell guy C about how him and I felt. I did and guy C walked out.

Later a friend came and picked me up and took me to see guy C. I told guy C over and over again that he's the one I want to be with not guy A. Because yes I do love guy A, but I don't want to be with him I want to be with guy C. Guy C is a wonderful person, he didn't yell or call names or anything.

He just said he felt our whole relationship was I lie because the entire time we'd been together I'd had feelings for guy A. Guy C also brought up the point that after I'd left guy B for him(guy C), that I let guy B see me at school and we hung out in his hotel room. Again nothing happened.

I won't and I can't physically cheat on guy C. But he brought up the point that I'd done something worse. I'd been emotionally cheating on him, right in front of him. I don't know what to do.

I've begged and pleeded with guy C. I've told him over and over that he's the one I want to be with not anyone else. I understand where he's coming from when he says he feels I'm lying. He has no reason to trust me, ever. I've destroyed the best thing that ever happend to me.

I don't want it to be too late. I'll do anything to keep Guy C but he just won't hear that right now. It's only been one day and I know he needs time. But what do I do to save the one I love and want more than anyone in the world? PLEASE HELP!!! I'M DESPERATE TO SAVE THIS RELATIONSHIP!!!