do you have health insurance? are you able to see a therapist and get on medication?
i was against seeing a therapist until one day i was crying and was so depressed, i didnt know what to do, so i seen a therapist, was diagnosed with major depression and put on prozac.
it's hard for me to trust men because i was hurt so much? so what's your excuse for not trusting people?
you are depressed, you feel low and you sometimes think of killing yourself.
life can be better for you, and you can live life being content everyday.
this is coming from someone who had to battle depression all her life.