4 years ago i met a man who i fell in love with . id been married previously to an abusive man who when learned of our relationship applied and won custody of my son . I moved away with him we ran a pub together for a while and then when that didnt work out we found a place to live he got a job in a bar and we lived happily ever after ... or did we.
I have another son whos now 18 .. him and my mans relationship began to decline a couple of years ago when at first was pretty gd . in the last few months its been terrible
my relationship with my man has been up and down .. early in the relationship i became preganat and we decided to keep the baby . while in labour with this child it was discovered he had given me a STD which he claims he got from his ex .. I am now infected with the HPV virus as is he .
Id found out that he had in the early days of out relationship been flirting and having cyber sex with the receptionist at the hotel he worked at when i met him . this carried on through out my pregnancy but he never in his opinion cheated on me
5 days ago he came home from work and told me he loved me .. he held me all night long before getting up for work .. when he returned 6 hours later he was angry and upset kissed our 3 year old daughter and left .
he told me he didnt love me no more .. said there was no one else but on checking his phone records for months hes been texting literally 200 x plus a day the woman he works with who is single . said he hadnt been happy for a long time
I live miles away from my family and i have not got any friends here . his family have turned against me and im very much alone .
hes off infecting more women with hpv where i will prob have to stay on my own or risk infecting someone myself .
i love him very much i always have and ive never so much as looked else where . I gave up everything for him and i thought our relationship was good .
my instinct tells me to go home to my family .. but i cant bear to take our child away its already hurting her daddy isnt here any more . but im so sad and alone here and im scared if i do take her away he will do what my ex did and take her away from me .. it wouldnt look good ive lost custody once over an i dont think i could do that again I was broken last time ..
i just feel like ending it all ... cos whos gonna notice if im gone help me please !
I would say go and visit friends and family for a little, they know you best so would be able to offer the best advice. If you visit your family with your child you could see how they feel being around them. Maybe then propose the question to them how they'd feel being there permanently. Sometimes depends on how much contact the father has with the child is won't make a difference whether you live locally or not. I lived locally to mine and the communication was poor.
You really need to get yourself out of that. Take some time to thing about stuff. I would be best to go to a place where you can relax and think about your next step. It's important to think about your happiness and also your kids' happiness. If you decide to move on, it would be hard at first but you just have to be strong and stick with it.