ve had extremely frightening nightmares ever since i was a kid that i think are lucid dreams and they included dead bodies, half opened doors, dolls that have broken and pointed at me and when i woke up there was a broken doll on the floor. The thing is that all these nightmares have to do with this house and things that scare me. I've also recently started to see things such as i thought a midget was stalking me for 5 hours peeking around the corner and walking back and forth and going into a secret door and i didnt go to bed till 5am and i honestly thought it was real till the mourning. Another one is seeing a big black figure peek around my door. I've also seen things like the end of a robe or skirt (no it was not a curtain) just for a few seconds. I'm constantly paranoid and scared and ever since i was a kid i would hear voices in my head and they sometimes would stop me from being able to sleep. They are usually different voices talking directly to me tho i dont listen to them because they scare me. Whenever i look at something it looks like its drifting away or shifting but not that much, it scared me at first when i was 10 but its okay now. My sleeping schedual is messed up and i often wake up at 3am or 4am or 5am or i just cant sleep or im too scared to sleep. I cant be in a room at night if the bed is not in the corner, there is a empty chair directed to me, the door is open or slightly open, its dark, theres a chair at a desk, there is an empty chair, there is a doll or any type of toy etc. I also dont like reflections like mirrors but also reflections where its not so clear like a lamp post of a dark screen etc A few times i thought there was bugs on me and i couldnt sleep. I'm only 14 and i have grown up with a major depressed and angry dad and a mom who i swear is mental maybe bipolar or just weird idk and she used to abuse me as a kid and shes still very stressful on me while my dad doesnt do anything. Idk what else to say either then my dads brother has self illsusions manic depression and paranoia and idk about the rest. I'm 14 and yes ive smoked marijuana casually not very frequent but it started before ive smoked.
ive also had sleep paralysis a couple of times which really scared me
oh and ive had numerous panic attacks mostly in grade 5 because i thought i couldnt breath but i was extremely scared of flying last year and i had to fly soon and i would cry and freak myself out. Also at night i freakout with the slightest sound and i think that there is certain things following me and trying to harm me or hurt me mentally.
one of them is female and has no body form. One of them is a demon man guy. One of them is a woman who is dead and silent.
im just asking if theres anything wrong with me and any questions too i would answer if needed
sorry if this is not well written, im really tired.
(im also kinda anti social and paranoid everyone secretly hates me and has their own plans against me while they gain my trust and i dont really go out even if alot of people ask me, all depends who and if i know them alot)
also over a year ago a very close family member i considered as a mom to me died from brain cancer and i felt extremely guilty because i didnt see her for months... if this is related to anything
and alot of times ive cried about thes fears and such like alot
The good news is that schizphrenia and other serious mental illnesses rarely present in someone so young. You may just be/have been an anxious kid! I would know, I certainly was
Most of what you're describing seems to be happening at night...I would guess that
a) you have an active and healthy imagination--perhaps one day i'll watch you win an Oscar or a Pulitzer on TV!
b) You are smart and inquisitive--perhaps you're overthinking things...some people can visualize--I mean literally see--their fears and 'hearing voices' really isn't that out of the ordinary when a smart mind races as much as yours seems to.
c) Lack of sleep or true insomnia can make the 'imaginative' side of your brain more active--for me it took over 20 years (from 5 to 25) of being a chronic insomniac before I was finally put on a med that worked.
d) Kinda like doing magic mushrooms without the magic or the mushrooms, it is PERFECTLY NORMAL for static objects to appear to 'move.' You are not seeing things it's a trick of the eye. Test this by finding a pattern and staring through it...the lines will appear to wiggle or move in and out.
e) Stop smoking marijuana, it is not good for developing minds and believe me (or look it up) your brain is still developing through your early twenties. Smoking pot, even occasionally, can have long term effects on your intelligence and stability...So stop!
f) Stop being so self-focused and obsessing on YOU. Seriously, find a hobby or a habit that cn occupy you when you feel like freaking out. Reading, doing word or math games/puzzles, video games, whatever. Obviously, your making a cycle you're stuck in worse.
Okey-dokey, that's all I've got for now. It really doesn't sound like you have anything to worry about (easier said than done, I know). But once and a while we all need a healthy dose of prespective and reality. Ask your parents to let you volunteer at a soup kitchen or mental health service so you can see what real illness looks like. (or find another cause you believe in and join it!)
Trust me, it will make you feel better about yourself and might even give you something to focus your positive energy on.
but i am very active and try to distract myself as much as possible
i see things in the day too and sometimes hear things such as a door open and close
you're making me feel as if i am saying i am mentally crazy or have a mental illness even tho i never stated i did. im only looking for a solution to these problems and your answer was not very helpful.
lol the moving things like the lines and stuff are actually pretty neat to look at but thanks.
i didnt really add this in before but i tend to lack in sleep alot and then sometimes sleep way too much like 13 hours for one night and 5 or 6 hours the night before. I'm sometimes too tired to get up and try to go to school and find no motivation. Most nights im too afraid to fall asleep
Yes i know marijuana does that but i am not a frequent smoker and dont tend to be a stoner or a long term one.
i have plenty of hobbies thankyouverymuch. Not only do i do almost every school sport but im also in three competitive ones outside of school. I also play the guitar. I dont tend on having more hobbies since my plate is already full with alot of other things.
im also avoidant of people and too nervous to meet new people or people i havnt seen in awhile or dont know extremely alot which is a problem because theres alot of people who keep asking me to hangout
Im not saying if you should pursue such things, but it appears as if it's in you and you are a bit dull to it.
Fear isn't a bad thing unless it makes you do bad things, I wouldn't say that if your afraid of hitting yourself in the face with the proverbial hammer that it's a bad thing, the best thing to be afraid of is being a bad person.
Black figures, they are real Im afraid. I've also heard some pretty strange things about dolls as well.
I used to have lucid dreams as well, Ill always remember this one where my living room was flooded and a wolf came out of the hallway and starting eating my feet, what a jerk that wolf is you know, and they always make him seem so beautiful and heroic and even honorable, he is a jerk I tell you!
Being afraid means that you are smart I think, only one of those unawares people wouldn't be in this situation.
If I might ask what do the voices say exactly? Care to share?
And of course smoke as little of that stuff as possible, pot heads contrary to popular belief are pretty much good for nothing, not to say never do it but balance and moderation is the key.
I have schizophrenia. there are different types of schizos, and Im not sure my experiences can help you. I found out when I was 13, as you can imagine I was rebellious against my medications because noone else I knew had medicines to take, and I didn't want everyone to know I was crazy.
7 years later, here I am, and I dont have to take my medicines anymore; but I am not cured. there is no cure for this. Only treatments, sometimes they work, sometimes they dont. Don't think of yourself crazy, just know that you have something to deal with in addition to all of the other things everyone else deals with. Sometimes I see people that arent there. They have either vacant expressions or expressions of twisted pleasure, but they never talk to me. I have a voice inside my brain that I know does damage, where as these images of strange, dark people cannot. I have to wait for the storm to pass, but I hope there is something out there for you.
sorry to hear that, im hoping whatever is happening i can make it go away before it gets worse because its getting worse lol..........
its making me really scared to the point im trying not to look at things beside me or infront of me or anything because of the fear of seeing something else. I'm also starting to hear phone rings or beeps and i forget the rest
May I suggest you see your GP and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist? The psychiatrist deal with this kind of stuff all the time. You may have something going on but then again you may not. If you do, and you get treatment early, your outcome is much better. Always go for the specialist and take it from there
Schizophrenia is a prominent thought disorder that include delusions inappropriate affect or silly affect, and disorganized speech. Those who suffer from schizophrenia can be grouped into 3 categories: 1.treated successfully with a full recovery 2.partial recovery with a reasonably normal life 3.little or no recovery with repeated hospitalizations
my speech was never very good, i had to go to special classes as a kid and i always mix up my words and have to repeat sentences etc
could hallucinations and hearing things/voices come from depression?