ive had extremely frightening nightmares ever since i was a kid that i think are lucid dreams and they included dead bodies, half opened doors, dolls that have broken and pointed at me and when i woke up there was a broken doll on the floor. The thing is that all these nightmares have to do with this house and things that scare me. I've also recently started to see things such as i thought a midget was stalking me for 5 hours peeking around the corner and walking back and forth and going into a secret door and i didnt go to bed till 5am and i honestly thought it was real till the mourning. Another one is seeing a big black figure peek around my door. I've also seen things like the end of a robe or skirt (no it was not a curtain) just for a few seconds. I'm constantly paranoid and scared and ever since i was a kid i would hear voices in my head and they sometimes would stop me from being able to sleep. They are usually different voices talking directly to me tho i dont listen to them because they scare me. Whenever i look at something it looks like its drifting away or shifting but not that much, it scared me at first when i was 10 but its okay now. My sleeping schedual is messed up and i often wake up at 3am or 4am or 5am or i just cant sleep or im too scared to sleep. I cant be in a room at night if the bed is not in the corner, there is a empty chair directed to me, the door is open or slightly open, its dark, theres a chair at a desk, there is an empty chair, there is a doll or any type of toy etc. I also dont like reflections like mirrors but also reflections where its not so clear like a lamp post of a dark screen etc A few times i thought there was bugs on me and i couldnt sleep. I'm only 14 and i have grown up with a major depressed and angry dad and a mom who i swear is mental maybe bipolar or just weird idk and she used to abuse me as a kid and shes still very stressful on me while my dad doesnt do anything. Idk what else to say either then my dads brother has self illsusions manic depression and paranoia and idk about the rest. I'm 14 and yes ive smoked marijuana casually not very frequent but it started before ive smoked.
ive also had sleep paralysis a couple of times which really scared me
oh and ive had numerous panic attacks mostly in grade 5 because i thought i couldnt breath but i was extremely scared of flying last year and i had to fly soon and i would cry and freak myself out. Also at night i freakout with the slightest sound and i think that there is certain things following me and trying to harm me or hurt me mentally.
one of them is female and has no body form. One of them is a demon man guy. One of them is a woman who is dead and silent.
im just asking if theres anything wrong with me and any questions too i would answer if needed
sorry if this is not well written, im really tired.
(im also kinda anti social and paranoid everyone secretly hates me and has their own plans against me while they gain my trust and i dont really go out even if alot of people ask me, all depends who and if i know them alot)