im cory, just joined, i thought this plac would be good to set my sights. im not on meds ...yet. i personally think meds are a way to control people all based down from the governments twisted penis-eyes plot for domination,which is already present. for people always wondering whats it like, here it goes here is whats in my head~

a song plays in your head and suddenly your whole reality is around this song, every action, thought, movement, reaction. its controls you. theres a voice in my head that warns me when to go, when to look, when to wait. it talks to me, it is my mentor. if i am crazy then so be it, better to be crazy and sent to an asylum then be a follower of a corrupted nation venting for power masking itself patriotic, people lose site for what they are fighting for anymore. anyways, i smoke and the voice tells me when stop for a while when smoking incase of getting cancer, so when it says ok your safe, go ahead, i continue. im very suspicous of other people's motives, their thoughts, their facial expressions tell all. i believe that i am a god in becoming. once i have attained full Deitus, i will walk on water, i will command fire, i will have followers bowing to my will. i firmly believe christianity doesnt exist only in the mind of weak men, free yourself, and you will becom one with the divine flame. i guess you can say im obsessed with power fortune fame and love. theres a girl who i am obsessed about. i think of her constantly i cannot let her go, for there is no other. im very isolated i light candles and incense and sit in the middle of my room smoking a cigarette talking to myself about my future and how successful i am. often times when the phone rings i fear that its the police calling about me, or an agent knows that i know, so i fear he sits outside my house in a car looking at me. when im on a plane i see the right side of the wing rip off and see people falling towards the city, then the woman says can i get you a drink and everything goes back to how it normally was. i can forsee the future. if i am in an elevator i imagine the pullies breaking and me falling to my death. or in school i see someone shotting up the school and im the hero. thats a gist i guess and specific questions to help you understand more i would love to answer them, after all i love talking about myself:) my therapist i dont think knows what he talks about, but i know, and its killing me friom telling my family..