But well I dont get online much with the computer being in the bedroom but it looks soo much nicer in the house with it in our room. Lately all ive been doing is cleaning all the time! Jasons still on that game, the family advocacy lady was supposed to call this past week but i guess she forgot so i gotta call her tomorow. Its driving me up the wall! And this computer just sucks in general its an emachines and we really need a new one, it still runs like crud and there isnt anything extra on here! I cant even play the sims on here it takes about an hour just for the game to load! But im doing alright, still hate myself etc, ive gone days without eating then eating normal etc, its just hard when i feel alone even though jason is physically here but thats about it . His back is still hurt, last appt they did a nerve block or whatnot but I guess that didnt help him, something this month he goes back to landstuhl again i dunno what they are gonna do this time though. Joseph qualified for continuing speech therapy at the elementary school once he turns 3. He can actually count to 9 on his own though! its awesome, and lately he always says um excuse me it always makes me laugh cuz its just soo polite sounding coming from a tiny person. Wednesday we have a meeting up at the school. Friday they have physicals so i can register them for childcare in case they should need it. Tomorow jason should be getting this car from some dude for $500 wich we soo need with the gas being $4.14 a gallon. Because right now its like $100 to fill his truck and soon it will prob be over that with the gas prices like they are, so yeah we need a small car. Still got the dog and our cat. I got the kids a slip n slide yesterday spent the past 2 day soutside with em. I ended up getting sunburn today! Of course while i was outside with the kids jason was in the house playing that game! This past week he has either stayed up till 5-7am most nights or pulled an all nighter playing that game. its just ugh insane. some days it drives me crazy but then hes like well what do u want me to do theres nothing to do. Take the kids to the park sit outside with me and them , play with them etc. But yeah Im calling that lady tomorow cuz im sure she forgot to call, like she forgot the meeting we were supposed to have a week or so ago! Jordynnes doing good, she is talking some , learning from her big brother, she says no alot lol. Josephs so great hehe when he is done eating he always brings his plate to the kitchen and emptys it in the trash and puts it in the sink! I dont think there is much else going on other then the same old stuff! Just cleaning and more cleaning and reading books and writing in my journal. The internet just isnt that fun i dunno plus its too hot in this house ot sit in front of the computer since we dont have air conditioning in germany. But wow its 1:30am im prob gonna head to bed, who knows what time jason will decide to go to bed!