Hi, I'm 14 and I'm depressed. I am definitely addicted to cutting myself and I have no clue how to stop. Also recently I'v started taking these pain pills and it feels like the room is moving and I actually feel happy.(I know I was probably little high on them) Now I cant stop and addicted to two things. Any advice would be amazing.. thanks..
It sounds like you cut because it gives you a strong feeling other than sadness/despair from being depressed. Trying out drugs is another way you are trying to feel something other than whats there.
You have a choice right now that can change your life. If you want to stop, all you have to do is tell someone. I don't know your family situation, but if you cant say those words to your parents, say them to a school counselor. Take treatment, learn a bit about dealing with crappy thoughts, in fact learn as much as you can because that will continue through your life its normal, it's how you deal with those thoughts that's the problem. The sooner you figure that out the better off you are. Do you want to be some weirdo old man in his one room apartment all alone watching the room spin? The best part of your teenagehood is just about to start, let yourself enjoy it!
life is going to get harder when you get older you must I repeat must plan for the future... that day will come and you must be prepared for it... ween yourself from the pain pills........get serious I wish somebody had somehow told me that when I was your age I don't know if I would have listened to or not but it might have been nice instead of where I am now 60-years old and just getting by.be prepared
Unfortunately none of us on here can really help you. We don't know what kind of situation you are in or facing in your life that makes you feel the way you do. We can all tell you to stop and to talk to someone but clearly that is not helping you at the moment and it sounds like you are not wanting to stop either?
You are still so young and it upsets me hearing that teenages as young as you feel the need to self harm in order to make themselves feel better. Whatever problems you may have in your life at the moment, seriously take a minute to think about them. Then try to imagine where you wanna be in 10 years time and what you wanna be doing. Once you've figured out where you wanna be start setting yourself a goal and aim to be there! Every time to think about cutting just get that picture in your head! If you carry on the way you are, in ten years time you will not be happy. Depression gets harder with age and becomes harder to stop yourself from doing the things you shouldn't. You need to stop while YOUR in control of your life before the depression takes control!
Maybe try to get a new hobbie? Something you will enjoy doing and that will keep you busy? Also I would suggest volunteering work. If you have an animal shelter near to where you live, ask to help out with the animals. Working with animals gives you company that you cannot get from other people. I know you may think this sounds stupid but, if you talk to an animal that you have got close with by looking after it, if you just say EVERYTHING that's on your mind to it, you will surprised at how much better it feels when you have everything out in the open.
If you do need someone to talk to then at least you have these chats to come onto. 8 years ago when I was your age, there wasn't so much availability to all this so take advantage. One more tip I have for you, is to read a book where someone has been through self harm and has been through treatment and finally after help, have become successful. Reading the pain that others go through really helps you feel like you can connect with them!
Good luck and I wish you all the best xx